Thursday, May 30, 2024

2 Big Things

I will not do something unattractive.

I will not be in trouble if I'm not.

I bought one of those red gym P.E. class bouncy balls, an adult kickball.

It's still not good enough.

Well, my good food comes in tomorrow.  If nothing else goes wrong.

I don't know if it's safe to exercise now.  I'm not being lazy.  I don't know how to set this up now.

I hate getting on the floor, but on my mat.

I think it's using my legs and the stress of the people on YouTube.

Vlog

I'm hoping taking a break from exercise I will recuperate after 2 sessions for 5 minutes today of cardio. Maybe, it will help.  I'm a bit winded.

I want to feel safe and say I'm rejecting my family because when "the white one" comes up I want that to be me.

Reading Blog

Music Education Book

I hope I don't get tired of reading and get bored.

Update

Under Blogs > Blogs on the left side.

Reading

My aunt, Joni, comes on very strong, but she backs away from my life with a low self-esteem, when I'm still interested in her.  I thought more people would be very interested in her...

It seems people think each relative has different ancestors.

Wouldn't it be fun to have a job training dogs for the most classified or dangerous etc. jobs?

Me Singing

Billy Boy...

A Litte, It's "Okay"

Me Singing

"Think of Me"

Hidden Gem - Listen if You're Bored?

Me Singing Like Emma

Hey, good! :)

Me Singing like Emma

Money! 😁

Update

I put my profile photo is from 2023 on top of it.

If I get in so much trouble for being bad and ugly, then when I am good why don't I get anything like it's okay like other people?  Other people are really bad and get lots socially.

If it was someone else, do you think they would have been kept in a nursing home for 5 months?

Cleveland is bull.

For the nurses, it's about going by perfectly but it's ghey, and the kids were bad before.

Race

My theory is Whites tolerate the existence of Asians more other than not wanting to be them, in short, is that they themselves already are White.  ...And, so, seeing an Asian, they are still in presence of Whiteness and not really "alone..."  They are not told to just be more Asian, like mixed White/Asians!

Update

Top Right

Christina Barrett

Violin Major

Update

Left Side of Blog Near Top

Adult Ballet/Dance

I do plan to go back, when I figure skate and have money.

High School

If I Went Back

Pope John Paul II Catholic High School

After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet

Year 1
1- English I
2- Geometry
3- History
4- Physical Science
5- Religion I
6- Health | PE I
7- Art I

Year 2
1- English II
2- Algebra II
3- History
4- Biology I
5- Religion II
6- PE II
7- Art II

Year 3
1- English III
2- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
3- History
4- Chemistry I
5- Religion III
6- Art III
7- French I

Year 4
1- English IV
2- Calculus
3- Religion IV
4- Art IV
5- French II
6- Spanish I
7- 

College - Tulane - Dance/Ballet

Young adults with schizophrenia might be the byproduct of a bad educational experience in high school.

"COS" Child-Onset Schizophrenia

I wonder if they like to play violent video games, since they are sortra "suicidal."

Women with schizophrenia, many who were in a facility being treated for it, have small babies early.

Schizophrenia

The internet says it's rare in young children, like under 12.

I read a book that said babies with too much white bread go cross eyed in a honeymoon period with the mom.  It was in the library at a college, Baldwin-Wallace, Up North in Berea, Ohio.

So, My Future and Life and the Very Near Future and Present

I thought I'd get the ice skating down, it's not too late, instead of shooting for Dance/Ballet at Tulane.  I dunno, it seems good, fun, and maybe special.  It might even help.

I've never vacation'd much.  I'd rather skate than sell my book soon for money sooner.  I might spend all my money skating.  I dunno if there's food there or how expensive or cheap it is.

I wanna work on helping other people so I'm not alone in my experiences like life is unfair and no one cares about me.  I've achieved a lot of individual abilities but not made money from them.

The groceries look good for 4 days with leftovers.  I might walk and get Chinese or to McDonald's or get a pizza at Pizza Hut or from Dominos's or something.  I will probably eat out tomorrow with DoorDash here in the nursing home, and it's only May 30th.  I might do it once each day here left, that's 4 days and then when I get back home.  I wonder if that's $100.  I wanted to get canned food etc., but I want to save the money and get food from church and do have some stuff.

I might save for awhile and get the ice skates like in September.  More food!  I seem to have like $300-$400+ leftover.

What I'm Supposedly Getting for June

Just the Kitchen Stuff