What's not okay about how I look?
Sunday, May 5, 2024
College
I want to get a BFA in Dance at Tulane and take violin lessons, or minor.
I'm set to do ballet here, first, and I can tell them I'm gonna audition or go there and audition after awhile, have to ask what they do there.
Fire! Fire!
Do you know when Europeans "stop, drop, and roll," like Americans do in a fire? when someone has hair that is not black or very dark brown.
Playing a Game
I want my food. I'm playing it safe being enrolled in a BBA in Finance online and selling my solo music with MIDI background. I do want to do well in the study of music and arts, but I can't find the outer limits.
Okay, so, here.
Let me get this. We wanna stick to our work routine but make it safe home with our takeout and depend on people like Andre Rieu etc. to brighten our time.
Problem People
I can't believe there are people in the corner of the world/internet, lurking to come out and suggest you did something wrong and when you say you're not affected it just keeps happening to you like you're different.
Life
It's hard to decide what to do in life, sometimes.
For example, I like both music/dance and things like acting/communications. I need to just focus on having fun and getting enough good food to eat.
Andre Rieu
Andre Rieu could be the link to why people focus on tropical paradise as the center of the universe as opposed to classical music. This century is going by fast. Oh well.
Sitting Around
It feels like I sit around waiting for the 4x a day the nurses come in to give me insulin and sometimes medicine, pills.
That Site
People on film|boards talk in a way you have to be involved and reading a lot quickly so I can't talk.
Hm.
I like her, but here's a funny game.
Why does Petra (Mullejans) the puppy pee on herself? It seems kinda selfish, like a routine and looks at me like what? It's like you said you were like god to me. I didn't say it, but you did.
My DoorDash of the Day
I ordered Wendy's because lunch was so wacky and yucky.
I got a small combo, chicken. I was gonna get Chick-fil-A, but it's closed.
Opposition
I was so holistic and healthy-looking and pretty healthy then and pretty in that way. This is like the opposite, it's perverted Christina. They worked hard over the years and never let up. The mentality is that I'm in trouble and don't deserve to eat well. I am gonna sell Frilly maybe in June, if it's only $208 total. I might sell my singing, too, for only $20 unlimited, across like all big stores.
(Big) Crime
The people monitoring me in private work hard to make sure I don't make it in life.
I know I wasn't perverted and was not disgusting. They've been impersonating to me that Ellen DeGeneres would or did try to prove I could become something else bad and that for whatever random reason I deserved it. They are trying to say it's not possible that other people are already like that. I forget how, but they made me panic and feel bad, and I already had problems not wanting to go out into the house with my family home from college.
I know I was gonna even fix myself up even more and they took even that aesthetic away from me, my makeover. I know people panic'd, like saying to themselves nervously like, 'But no" or hating me with all their might as the reason they could say I had to go down, as their last wish against me, like I did something that deserved that.
Frilly
by me now
Going Back Central 🗺
Mayday! Mayday! 🛩
Frilly is, like, 16. She's out of the baby grade and now a child.
She has beautiful hair of reddish orange gold and platinum blonde. It swirls at the ends a little below her shoulders. Her bangs bounce, like her curls, sprung down.
Her eyes are beautiful watery blue. Her skin is flushed with a nice gold tint on cream skin.
She knows how to quickly make her own clothes. She has like a robe for a dress, but it's short, especially as she's a child. The sleeves are a little wide and cupped at the cuffs. It's a beautiful rose material. The cuffs are pale pink, as for the dress's kind of collar and the sash or bow ribbon, made of the same material as the dress. There are lovely buttons going to the side on the sleeve area. The material is nice and thick similar to a fuzzy toy sculpture feel, sorta dense but soft. It's beautiful and flowing and swings but doesn't reveal underneath. She has the pants under that show a little below the dress. It's also pale pink with cups. She has her bag, backpack. It's like an animal, very nice.
She sees Andre and is quite enamored.
They are going on a sojourn, a big trip, by sea, a nice cruise ship! Mighty shall she sail!
She has a friend named Annabelle she likes to talk to. Annabelle dreams of meeting a prince someday and is a lovely violinist!
She has another friend named Christina who surprises her sometimes by showing that she follows her interests.
There's a little girl named Emma she likes to help. She helps her with the others.
There are many other popular girls she likes to jam with, as well, some she doesn't even know the name of but knows by face. Some are in the orchestra, and many just come and hang out and go to the concerts and wait and have fun in town.
So, they get on a plane and get to the edge of the cruise ship. Frilly remembers going to the submarine in Antarctica. Andre is interacting with some people, and everyone else is, too. Frilly goes up to the area he is without knowing, and he eyes her and tells her to come and he lifts her, now a beautiful 16 year old, and holds onto her on the seasick ship where everyone gets cabin fever.
He socializes with some people and they all huddle together. Frilly is silent, and Andre addresses her. She calls him "Mister." He tells he to go to sleep as he gets from her bag, fixes her back brace on her and the braces on her ankles. He holds her and everyone is still huddling and growing more silent as the ship sails on. Frilly dreams of seeing whales. She wakes up and asks if she can buy something with her money. He lets her go. He talks to some other girls nearby. They are all scared of the ocean. They are sick thinking there may be a storm.
It's time to turn in. Andre socializes with some people his age and later treats some children, in a room. He brings Frilly to his cabin after that, after she plays around while he is with the others. He lets her take her bath and comes in to check her out and helps her bathe.
It's actually the holiday season, and so the "cabin" is decorated for Christmas sorta. It has rainbow lights, the little ones. There is a fireplace. All the cabins are nice. There is even a drawing room.
Of course, there is a kitchen to help with food, but food is prepared for them, too. So, he feeds her, and she is all excited, like a baby eating baby-food. She is dressed nicely with little booties and her hair "pulled back" by a ribbon. It is adorned as green and orange largely with flowers and some pink with yellow in the centers of the flowers. She goes to her den where she sleeps on a bed and there's a chair and computer/TV screen etc. She plays in there. Andre steps out for awhile to see some people and alone. He comes back in and showers and then says they can read a children's book. She sits on some furniture and he sits in a chair and she looks down at the book. It's very short. Then, he puts on a TV show or movie he likes. Frilly goes to post about Tim Burton. She falls asleep and then Andre turns out the light later and falls asleep himself.
Andre is up and prepares coffee and some snack, gets ready, helps get Frilly ready since she's there etc. and she goes out early and explores, with her bag and lovely outfit from her suitcase.
Frilly spots some whales and dolphins and is riveted!
Finally, they arrive. Their stuff is taken to a hotel and put in their rooms in advance somehow. There are some ghost tours there of well repute that they are going to undertake later.
They go to a huge building. Frilly is dressed in a lot of blue, largely and strongly some "royal blue" color. There is also white in her dress. She has a kind of beret beanie on, too. It's beautiful on the lovely hair. She has nice heels on her boots. Her dress is short. There's a scarf tie on it.
So, they straddle the premises to the top and watch the screen for all the statistics and see figures of little planes coming and going.
Numbers. Letters.
Frilly goes with Emma and they look at the Santa Claus screen, empty as it's not Christmas, yet. However, there is a mailbox for Santa.
Figures are reported as they stand around feeling important in a way.
There is a quaint, authentic, old feel.
Finally it is time to descend. The ghost tour is waiting, too.
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