Remember a better world?

Remember, bad Italians etc. think I don't get to have fun.

Well!

The people monitoring me in private can't act in place of others I like.

Counting Money

I have nothing better to do than count money.

Shit!

I was feeling really crappy and went to take a shit and feel much better, now.

If I landed...

If I had a fancy house, I would have it beautifully light slightly bluish green with gold shiny borders.  I'm ready to take this world into its future!

Happy Content?

😭  Do you go home every day and come back refreshed and 100% perfect in life?  When you come here for the shits and giggles and have a good time, on film|boards.

The Social World is Hibernating

The world used to be more social.  Now, everyone does their thing in private.  Like, memes and cliches.  Like, things that you'd find'd be a big deal, like logical things you conclude.

Teenagers and Young Adults

I noticed teenagers and young adults in the mid 1990s or something would get upset at me, like if they do something and you don't give a friendly reaction.  I would just feel embarrassed, on the spot but then look shy.  Still, you'd be treated like you're bad, like "trash."  They act like you're not cool and they all keep doing these things.  They're all mad at Mommy and Daddy issues to kids, even good ones.  Bad kids seem to get away with it, sometimes.  I mean kids when I was younger, like maybe 12 I 1998? and older.

Frozen "Dinners"

I just watched a YouTube video on frozen dinners.

I thought frozen dinners that were worth it would be things good frozen but fun like chicken nuggets with fries and a dessert.

It makes sense to sell emergency food for emergencies.  The video opens saying it's an alternative to saying, negatively, "take out" from restaurants or something.  Well, I was thinking of being a stay at home mom, but I'd get tired from staying home too possibly since I'm not used to it.  I just can't do this the way I want.

Germany and Music

I had a somewhat good somewhat strange dream.

First it was about music and Germany, Tim Burton is a good French style artist, but whatever he did was handled sloppily and suddenly it was all about art and England which wasn't supposed to like stop Germany.

My dream started with me in school giving a piano recital that was decent but not my best.  This pretty flute player I saw Up North was in with the in crowd.  It turned into an animation, as I saw, after they went deep down to a sub like 40 floors into the earth, some big fat Italian pizza cartoon men whipped up cans of biscuits and used it to make sandwiches of some sort.  They had to eat, so make it cheap.  The train/s came.  There was a mouse working on it, gray, and it was so horrific its tail tied itself to the rail and it whipped around dead on the wheel!  Etc.  It kept repeating how people need to eat and they make it cheap.  It was the fuel for the duel, so-to-speak.  They looked at the passengers.  The mouse suffered.  In the end, I was welcome to a sweatshirt and part time job and to play violin in a group someday.  There was another private message I think meaning someday things would be better but today maybe would stay the same.  It sounds like what it's like for kids today.  Kids today don't fit in at all and are scrambling to fit in.

Behavior

I have strict rules of behavior I am sometimes solely rewarded for, while Barb and Joni don't.

Still

It may not be necessary but more or less still my business.  Maybe my whole life is a joke.  She's already like that.

Joni

Joni seems to get it just for having light hair.  I don't know if she's in my business because they lie.  Anyway, they think she's humble, really.  Go talk to her and stop ruining my life.

And..

It seems like it's taking too long whatever we are looking forward to.

I guess.

I guess people just don't like me and won't leave me alone, tho.

Hm.

If it's all about Joni getting with a boy like marrying then why is she such a big deal to everyone else who turns her down? if they do.

Hm.

I found Irish was Germanic?

Hm, well.

The Dutch will show interested in Germany when not me even if people disagree with something fishy about them that only they can share.

Well

What about Asians and mixed Asians who are ready to talk?

Staying in Shape

Do some people stay in shape by talking?

Hm..

What if it's not America? so much.

I want to move.

Somewhere without natural disasters so much.  Maybe in June.

Hm..

It's not an emergency if someone gets something someone else doesn't get.  I'm watching something on TV.

"That's what I heard."

I said the food was a problem and they know I'm 1/2 Asian.  They didn't use their authority to make sure I'm okay or the kitchen didn't listen well or it's still bad.  Cleveland is afraid to say anything, thinks it has a shot at being Far North.

Hm..

There are lots of things to do in life not stuck in one room without enough food.

and

Germany won't do "it."

Germans

Well, I'm not as interested in the U.S.

Hm.

Germans might be disconnected from France like England.

I found something else in this feeling.

Why is Andre such a topic?  His ways that match Joni are mean.

What's this?

So, I was taken out of school and my environment was ruined by my dad, so I could not be myself.  He said he was too poor for me to eat anymore and got junk all the time and disgusting meals.

Joni

Why am I always denied on Joni, anyway?

There

Germany is attractive and possesses qualities found attractive in the French.  It doesn't mean I dislike French or participate less?  Full French people go off and do as they please.  Not all Germans are "attractive" or pleasing.  I am also not in France or even New Orleans with its expensive natural disasters.

"Ghey."

Do you have anything else to talk about?

Hmph

I'm tired of getting no answer.  I'm patient, but now it's Joni.

Weird

Andre was pretty good and a good option next to Petra or what have you.  You acted like he wasn't good enough and everyone else was.  You said it was "about time."

"The Grouch"es

Are "you" the "fat and ugly" kind from being mean and irresponsible?

Hm.

It looks like I lost something, not just Andre, too.

How Much Am I Prevented

from becoming my beautiful self?

I can't chose the foods I want in the nursing home and it's not good.

Another Question

Why do people say I have something better regarding my work so Joni gets Andre now?

So

Baby Boomers have turned off all Generation XY.