I hate how I can't breathe well in my dreams, and I know I'm dreaming and sometimes try to stay asleep.
I had a nice room and arrived with my younger brother, who was small sometimes.
I got myself employment maybe to my mom's surprise.
Something happened and I seemed to have an attitude. Barb found out, and she was pursuing me and like my mom was saying. I know I found 1 huge pill instead of many, and something else. Barb kept chasing me. My mom, too.
I imagined a big guy finally who came, like a puppet or Barney, but he was just a person, kinda looked like my martial arts teacher but wanted him to be generic.
I also remember I had a backpack of stuff and some people were going to sports, athletics, or tennis with me. I think I was on the basketball team to be. I felt so good. I was still pursued and threatened. The people at work would not fire me but one followed me earlier, I think, or went in to me kinda for awhile, like a nice lady with smooth blonde hair.
For a long time, the feeling of me writing a story, this big creature kept holding me and carrying me in weird ways like he was bouncing and stuff, you know, like I couldn't make it out I was so uncomfortable. I imagined a string going under me and later a bit he said to imagine going up. I knew I was dreaming, too, and was afraid to wake up with the nurse there, again feeling it in my sleep, stimulation. I just try to make it feel strong and know it will probably stop. Too bad it's all in one area..
Anyway, I was a big girl and kept saying not to hurt my younger brother. Supposedly, the creature was drunk. I was so happy to be with my younger brother again. Maybe, the creature was even there.
So, I guess near the end it ends with, well lots of different things happened, too, like with Barb and with the creature too. So, near the end, I kinda had a faint image of him holding me and rubbing my face or head and everything saying like through my puppetry what was wrong and I kept saying how sad I was in the hospital in my dream that well nursing home that it's hard to breathe, like now, like I was crying and he kept holding me and I kept saying that. I dunno, is it???
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