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I think I do want to go to line dancing tomorrow.  I set up more stuff in my home but didn't do the laundry.

I'll bring my camera stand, too.

Do you think it matters a lot what fruit you eat?  There are only so many at the grocery stores.  Like, I have a cup of water with cut up lime and I have fruit out thawing I store today I take some of now and then.  It's more refreshing than just water.  I have some vegetables with every meal, like.

No line dancing for tomorrow if I don't get some laundry done maybe but maybe if I'm not tired.

People seemed to sense something the matter with me when I didn't transfer the money for today's sales, some cheap stuff, several things. I transferred $17.. at least $15.

I want to clean the kitchen, as usual, but my head feels tight from exercise.

I'm not even eating fried potatoes for this meal.  I really wanted to make nacho dip but need the chips.

I mean stay home for more than one day to do my laundry.

So Good to Be Solo

I might just stay home and finish off my laundry or half of it, which is important.  See, I didn't get one of my bank cards, 2 cards from this bank.

Why do Andre Rieu's people get to do that so much if I may never feel that good as of now?  I let them be.

It seems some/many Dutch people associated with Andre Rieu, a word I happened to use regarding someone related, do treat me like "shit" or trash or like I did something special to show I'm not good enough..

Do you think Andre Rieu's orchestra is cute?  I wonder if all the members are different.

It's hard to get back to sleep because of all the exercise.

I'm excited to get this laundry under control.  I'm gonna sort out the clean laundry to be stowed away.  I have to clean a packing bag, disinfect it.

Winding Down

I'm winding down, so I can take my pills and vitamins comfortably.  I have my green tea, to calm me.

Woke Up, for Now

 I may have gone to bed, like, 4 hours ago.  I'm still tired and would go back to bed, but I'm too hungry and so am having breakfast, which these days is a poached egg with salt and pepper and green tea and 1/2 an orange, along with my vitamins and pills.

I might wait a little to go to bed or go soon.  I'm pretty worked from my exercise class today and need to stay home and rest, probably.  I also need to do laundry, maybe later or after my next nap.

I feel happier when people make fun of me because I know all my fun work to be healthy and save up ^riches^ means I will go places and not stay in this evil deevil apartment and area....  I need to have fun looking into this for fun and find out how to find out how to live.  Florida is hot, and many people are Up North culture.

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The people monitoring me in private won't stop projecting themselves as stupid.

I'm the one who has to worry to stay out of a mental hospital!

The people monitoring me in private are drunk and provoking me to yell and in an apartment.

So, I've started to have been trashed, long ago, for my race, but it didn't used to be this way.

I feel social pressure that Andre Rieu's girls can get attention, lingering on Instagram and won't talk to me cuza my dad they know my race and have an excuse to be totally "pigs."

They don't listen, but I'm sick of the people monitoring me in private, like the fat fair Italian lady, going with the flow to make problems and it just goes, as she's the main person who's ever said anything, and I can't have the fat darker Italian lady who's still pretty fair, anymore.

Do you think my parents died for holding against my younger brother his shoving the dish in the table since my dad acted like my younger brother getting his wisdom teeth out was shit after?  I think so.  It's too bad, of course.

Andre Rieu's girls talk like I'm shit, in their accent.

People think they can act all drunk around Andre Rieu like they're this and that Dutch for him, while he tells me I'm shit socially for my own race.

I don't have anything special against Andre Rieu's personality, but he is drunk making up problems for me.

I'm extremely mad at the fat fair Italian lady monitoring me in private.

Why did the intelligent things go with woke?

Can I really feel comfortable at Christmas?

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I have a pretty cheap pack for 12 like 21 packs of cough drops of Ricola sugar free, regular kind.

Cough drops can save your life...?

Taking Ricola which has whatever in it but not like 50 a day is good and I didn't get weak and dependent on it.  The herbs made me cough less overall and I still took them.  So, I wouldn't throw up from coughing every time the food I had to eat bubbled up and down the tube ticking it for some reason.

My mom died from medication making her throw up everything almost.  The medication did that to me, too.

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The Kind of Family I'm From and Why It Seems So "Well to Do"

My family didn't really *trash the traditions*. They didn't force me to go ahead and mix the spaghetti and the sauce instead of eating it with the spaghetti as much plain as possible. They didn't ditch dinner. It wasn't "PIZZA!?"

We didn't have frozen vegetables etc. That's easy enough, I could have done it.

We did have traditional food that was not exactly Asian dining. I improved it on my own by chopping the meat ahead of time and squeezing lemon (or lime I will start soon too) and sprinkling salt and pepper on it, as well ... but the pieces are already cut.

We had good vegetables, like good broccoli with lots of spice, among other things, cooked vegetables to include lima beans, peas, cauliflower, lots of corn, etc. We also had fresh carrots and cucumbers, the cucumbers being a favorite of my younger brother, every night for supper. Of course, it would be hard to get into a routine to bring to school, but some people do or manage.

We had bread often, Italian bread, like baguettes? I liked lots of thick pieces. I had done gymnastics, so this was good. I didn't eat a lot of candy, ever, especially before age 5. I was very hungry. We didn't always eat quite the same or as much.

There were times, long times we ate very differently I could go into.

We had the meats: chicken often lemon pepper rotisserie, beef/steak, pork, ham, and for Thanksgiving turkey. Sometimes, fish, a newer thing, maybe because of the bones.

We had cereal for breakfast and maybe other things, orange juice since I used to be allergic to milk but had it in my cereal, though it just made me throw up. I've had other things for breakfast. Oh yea, pop tarts, sometimes waffles Egos.

We had fruits kinda like a treat but more to be healthy that it was okay it was tasty you know? No added sugar, but that would be a new dessert.

We had dessert, just not candy all day since I didn't when I was little I guess. Sometimes, we made special things, like most people's parents have them do. People at school in public high school made such a big deal I always made store bought cookie mix cookies, chocolate chip.

We had the drinks: sodas like Pepsi or Coke, Sprite, Root Beer, and Orange Soda. Water with ice we had to make at first for awhile. Sometimes, I did it, but it wasn't a big deal and they ignored it. I was naturally clean, though. We sometimes had other things like the Hawaiian Punch I liked with cheese sticks, Yoohoo!, and for lunch Capri Sun which used to be sweet and good frozen from breakfast.

We ate out, too, and it was very social in a way to sit there and feel it.

I think I'm gonna play and go through my dirty laundry and see what I want to wash, first, sometime, hopefully relatively soon.

Me Singing Now

Me Singing Now

from Massachusetts

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My dad and I bought the Halloween one online in 2007 in Altamonte Springs, Orlando, Florida.

The people monitoring me in private won't stop abusing me.

Food I Had I Made

I'm a little tired out from all the new excitement.

I threw out trash at like 2 AM or after, considering some people have to then.

I might just save my money now, not even get a TV.

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Good night!...

Another successful day!

Getting better.

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I decided to just take violin lessons for now..

I go to the gym.

I want to use the restroom, but I just took a walk and showered and want to sit down, though I went.

I just want to save, save money.

I might need to be stronger to be a real florist.  Another good reason to wait, other than money.

I sleep well and easily when I want to now sorta.

I wanted to go somewhere for July 4th.

I wonder if I will go to the mall by the end of July.  Snacks.  Buy something or so.

When I get pretty and fit, I may just submit my photos to a talent agency here.

I wonder if there's anything good to do in Hollywood on your time.  I know the modeling maybe, maybe I will sell my book? but it's intimidating. Especially if poor.  You have to pay to model and I don't know if you get more back in the end.

I could save up more money and wait if I want to get floristry certificate so much til later.

My mom was the florist at Albertson's in Saint Augustine, Florida, but she didn't have to get certified.

I want to sell at a place, like that.  The class, you can open your own shop, but that's the reason, that and to work like most people, as opposed to selling jewelry.  I also considered makeup in a store.

I don't feel awake enough or whatever for mass, yet.

I signed up for yoga tomorrow but will miss mass.  I wonder if I should go today.

You get a certificate.

It's a big thing to me, like my mom, I'm going to be a florist.  Maybe, I can afford an online class in July.  It seems better than skating lessons, now.

I just had lunch and may lie down and take a nap maybe soon.

I just went for a walk, had half an orange, took my pills, and took my vitamins.  I still have some green tea left I am having.  My back is a little tired, so I guess I have to lie down, soon, for a bit.

I have nightmares every night, horrible.

So, Andre Rieu is guarding Ashley my younger girl cousin and Michael my younger brother.

My dad left them in death.  So did my mom who watched over.  They were too young to die.  Don't commit suicide, live to be 100+ in comfortable health..

It's too sweet, the interaction I felt.  Lots of people would celebrate, but it's a private ordeal.  I think Ashley the frisky puppy came out and wagged her tail and Andre Rieu pulled her back in with Michael.

I couldn't believe I bothered my younger brother with a picture of Andre Rieu and now he's mad.

I can't believe he's thinking he can go against him for staying with Ashley and leaving us.

I already figured out he was gonna do this if the people kept attacking him for attacking Andre Rieu.

Goodnight, I'll write a little in my journal again that I will post online, from a book where I post stickers.

The pills are easy to take.. and lovely vitamins

I have fun making overnight oats.  I went for a walk in bad shoes, though, but they're slip on's and comfortable around the house.

My nose is still good even if I'm Chinese even when I was younger but not how I wanted exactly.

Well, I feel better, I threw up that nasty tasteless overnight oats for whatever reason and the spaghetti and meatballs.  I ate too much and produced mucus bubbles and lay down and I gag easily still.  I made it out and to the toilet.  I still have to clean some of it.  :(  I dunno if I should lay down and sleep now.  I don't have to go anywhere.  I can go through the library activity book to see what I want to do this summer.

My idea for lunch next time, which this time I spaghetti and meatballs or whatever.  Beans and rice are like a nutritional power up revitalizing renovating healing health snack.  Well, my next idea for lunch I mean is maybe Triscuits, cold cut deli meats, and cheese from blocks chopped up.  I loved eating this in college.  How could I have known from experience?

I might have like $200 something left, maybe $220 when all is said and done.  I don't want to spend it on anything, though.  I wonder how much money I'll have next month.  I should do my shopping cart for July, Instacart+, big.

Do you tend to want to believe my dad over my younger brother?

I ordered a keyboard stand.  It comes around a week from now.

I don't want to buy anymore food this month but am going to food pantries.

Assuming brunettes are worth it, say girls, do you think they are smarter with brown eyes or blue eyes?

I am not exercising until I eat more.

I'm hungry and making spaghetti and meatballs.

I can exercise in here, but I did open the window.  The windows in the living area are blacked out with paper.

I just realized both Ellen DeGeneres and Tim Burton who are only months apart agewise feature young people, like youth? young adults? riff raff luck?

I'm getting a $75 TV, 24 inches I think, from Wal-Mart, and it comes with the Olympics's channel.  July I guess.  I can put it on my L desk.  I have art and music stuff I can move to my shelf there.  I can put my stuffed animals there, too.  Right now, they are on my shelf and used to be the only thing on it.

Is Vivaldi the Andrew Lloyd Webber of classical music and his The Four Seasons its hit?

I slept a lot recently, I may not sleep.. maybe in the morning unfortunately and I need proper fitting lancets.  I think the store has plenty of those.  I still have some.

I like the nose plug to make my nose appear longer.

"Florida" is shit.

Why are European classical musicians etc. acting like it's the thing to do to say hey life is shit and I live in an ugly apartment and ride a bike?

If I can't even celebrate past societal ways without being invaded somehow now, why should I worry about your concerning other people?

Everyone is looking corny being ushered in to acceptance over me with Baby Boomers..

I have a nose clip on.  I have a pack of some neat ones!!

I'm so glad I didn't shave my hair, I didn't dye it and the products are all so interesting.

Classical musicians can go to Hollywood.  Everyone saved their violin, when they saw what happened.

People look to celebs to have children older with more interest, or to have another, often or sometimes, but not always.  I mean how it turns out.

I'm cooking beans and grain rice! after my jog down town.

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I have a pot and pan set to cook the chicken and broccoli.  I might even make potato chips.

The Road to Hollywood leads to dirt that comes out.  Just something to think about as you make your final preparations.

Tomorrow, lunch is spaghetti.  I guess breakfast will be eggs.  I also have my overnight oats.  Time for a break, but what to do???

I didn't think to thaw my chicken breasts.  Should I have 2?

Well, I unpacked the pots and pans with lids and did 2 jars of overnight oats. It'll be ready after midnight some time, like 2 AM.  I'd like to do all 4.  I wonder what I should have for supper, think I'll have a chicken breast and a fresh carrot for now and squeeze some lemon and sprinkle salt and pepper.  I also have limes, which was gonna be for squeezing on my meat.  I could squeeze it in plain water.  I was gonna get a soda stream.

I'm so happy I'm making Overnight Oats in 32 ounce Mason jars, glass jars with this funny top you put together sorta.  It's cocoa, vanilla, and honey with milk and oats.

I have some things in the kitchen to sort and throw out.

I put up my clothes.  Now, I just have stuff on the floor to get to and some dirty clothes there too, laundry to get to some of it.  A little more mail I found to throw out after I go through it.  Pretty much.  I need a break.

I know why I'm poorer than my parents, mixed race.

Medicine makes you tired, hard to read, put you to work, put you on Social Security so you don't have to work as much as other people.

I'm unpacking still, taking breaks.

I got a $4+ big meat pizza.

Ashley may not be Joni's fault, but I'm sorry to say she's not our responsibility for Joni's sorrows.

If you become a classical musician, are you suddenly too busy for social media?  I want to make it my life.

How can I "enjoy myself" when everyone is telling me I'm old, both younger and older?

I just took my vitamins!

Can we just do something other than hide behind the war of classical music and violinists?

I can prove a time when Andre realizes what he's doing to his orchestra.  He must be giving a party to play for his hometown for a whole month, but I don't think they care hardly at all nor upfront.

It's "none of my concern," but I proved Andre Rieu copies "Ashley."  If he copies us both simultaneously sometimes, why are we even connected?