I have nightmares every night, horrible.

So, Andre Rieu is guarding Ashley my younger girl cousin and Michael my younger brother.

My dad left them in death.  So did my mom who watched over.  They were too young to die.  Don't commit suicide, live to be 100+ in comfortable health..

It's too sweet, the interaction I felt.  Lots of people would celebrate, but it's a private ordeal.  I think Ashley the frisky puppy came out and wagged her tail and Andre Rieu pulled her back in with Michael.

I couldn't believe I bothered my younger brother with a picture of Andre Rieu and now he's mad.

I can't believe he's thinking he can go against him for staying with Ashley and leaving us.

I already figured out he was gonna do this if the people kept attacking him for attacking Andre Rieu.

Goodnight, I'll write a little in my journal again that I will post online, from a book where I post stickers.

The pills are easy to take.. and lovely vitamins

I have fun making overnight oats.  I went for a walk in bad shoes, though, but they're slip on's and comfortable around the house.

My nose is still good even if I'm Chinese even when I was younger but not how I wanted exactly.

Well, I feel better, I threw up that nasty tasteless overnight oats for whatever reason and the spaghetti and meatballs.  I ate too much and produced mucus bubbles and lay down and I gag easily still.  I made it out and to the toilet.  I still have to clean some of it.  :(  I dunno if I should lay down and sleep now.  I don't have to go anywhere.  I can go through the library activity book to see what I want to do this summer.

My idea for lunch next time, which this time I spaghetti and meatballs or whatever.  Beans and rice are like a nutritional power up revitalizing renovating healing health snack.  Well, my next idea for lunch I mean is maybe Triscuits, cold cut deli meats, and cheese from blocks chopped up.  I loved eating this in college.  How could I have known from experience?

I might have like $200 something left, maybe $220 when all is said and done.  I don't want to spend it on anything, though.  I wonder how much money I'll have next month.  I should do my shopping cart for July, Instacart+, big.

Do you tend to want to believe my dad over my younger brother?

I ordered a keyboard stand.  It comes around a week from now.

I don't want to buy anymore food this month but am going to food pantries.

Assuming brunettes are worth it, say girls, do you think they are smarter with brown eyes or blue eyes?

I am not exercising until I eat more.

I'm hungry and making spaghetti and meatballs.

I can exercise in here, but I did open the window.  The windows in the living area are blacked out with paper.

I just realized both Ellen DeGeneres and Tim Burton who are only months apart agewise feature young people, like youth? young adults? riff raff luck?

I'm getting a $75 TV, 24 inches I think, from Wal-Mart, and it comes with the Olympics's channel.  July I guess.  I can put it on my L desk.  I have art and music stuff I can move to my shelf there.  I can put my stuffed animals there, too.  Right now, they are on my shelf and used to be the only thing on it.

Is Vivaldi the Andrew Lloyd Webber of classical music and his The Four Seasons its hit?

I slept a lot recently, I may not sleep.. maybe in the morning unfortunately and I need proper fitting lancets.  I think the store has plenty of those.  I still have some.

I like the nose plug to make my nose appear longer.

"Florida" is shit.

Why are European classical musicians etc. acting like it's the thing to do to say hey life is shit and I live in an ugly apartment and ride a bike?

If I can't even celebrate past societal ways without being invaded somehow now, why should I worry about your concerning other people?

Everyone is looking corny being ushered in to acceptance over me with Baby Boomers..

I have a nose clip on.  I have a pack of some neat ones!!

I'm so glad I didn't shave my hair, I didn't dye it and the products are all so interesting.

Classical musicians can go to Hollywood.  Everyone saved their violin, when they saw what happened.

People look to celebs to have children older with more interest, or to have another, often or sometimes, but not always.  I mean how it turns out.

I'm cooking beans and grain rice! after my jog down town.

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I have a pot and pan set to cook the chicken and broccoli.  I might even make potato chips.

The Road to Hollywood leads to dirt that comes out.  Just something to think about as you make your final preparations.

Tomorrow, lunch is spaghetti.  I guess breakfast will be eggs.  I also have my overnight oats.  Time for a break, but what to do???

I didn't think to thaw my chicken breasts.  Should I have 2?

Well, I unpacked the pots and pans with lids and did 2 jars of overnight oats. It'll be ready after midnight some time, like 2 AM.  I'd like to do all 4.  I wonder what I should have for supper, think I'll have a chicken breast and a fresh carrot for now and squeeze some lemon and sprinkle salt and pepper.  I also have limes, which was gonna be for squeezing on my meat.  I could squeeze it in plain water.  I was gonna get a soda stream.

I'm so happy I'm making Overnight Oats in 32 ounce Mason jars, glass jars with this funny top you put together sorta.  It's cocoa, vanilla, and honey with milk and oats.

I have some things in the kitchen to sort and throw out.

I put up my clothes.  Now, I just have stuff on the floor to get to and some dirty clothes there too, laundry to get to some of it.  A little more mail I found to throw out after I go through it.  Pretty much.  I need a break.

I know why I'm poorer than my parents, mixed race.

Medicine makes you tired, hard to read, put you to work, put you on Social Security so you don't have to work as much as other people.

I'm unpacking still, taking breaks.

I got a $4+ big meat pizza.

Ashley may not be Joni's fault, but I'm sorry to say she's not our responsibility for Joni's sorrows.

If you become a classical musician, are you suddenly too busy for social media?  I want to make it my life.

How can I "enjoy myself" when everyone is telling me I'm old, both younger and older?

I just took my vitamins!

Can we just do something other than hide behind the war of classical music and violinists?

I can prove a time when Andre realizes what he's doing to his orchestra.  He must be giving a party to play for his hometown for a whole month, but I don't think they care hardly at all nor upfront.

It's "none of my concern," but I proved Andre Rieu copies "Ashley."  If he copies us both simultaneously sometimes, why are we even connected?

What needs to change.

We're just spending time not on saying yea famous people can do Christina and others like her but how annoyed they are at others.

What to do next?

I'm looking for people.  😡

I wouldn't "rush" to Hollywood, no one is there for you.

It's like they made a healthcare field that went in the bathroom and closed the stall after it decided not to play in an orchestra after sitting with their fat hairy ass in band all day every day while everyone else suffered who waited to play violin or something.

The healthcare field has this slapstick and unhealthy attitude, as well.  People are too gullible to believe that healthcare is the only real thing that matters, since everything else is to do with eating food and meeting needs in life, like the blacksmith (metal worker) and the carpenter.

The healthcare field seems to feel it is different from others and also "special."  Why?  Because they will never tell you the whole truth in words.  They just, instead, look forlornly about prescribing medicines that are more "optional."  They won't tell you like how important it is not to skip one dose of insulin because *you might just skip* regularly.  For instance, I told them I needed my insulin and pills when I go home, and I didn't get told anything like that.  When a nurse was out, not often, they never said anything, neither, like it was cute to be silent and seemed not to want me to feel okay about answering.  When you see a free dietitian, for a maybe either brief meet or maybe a separate visit possibly though, they won't tell you how to eat your sugars and assume everyone is telling you not to eat any at all, for best possible results, like this is the end for you.

I put my groceries away, barely everything fit with the thawing turkey.

For lunch, instead of sandwiches, I'm having spaghetti and meatballs.

Paranoid, I still feel haunted that people think I deserve bad things... and I'm on my own with diabetes.

I took out the trash, then paid rent.  I just have to go through and throw out old mail and some other things, do my laundry > throw out some stuff, wash clothes, wash bedding.  I'm good to go!

Extra expenses were the canned soup in the nursing home for $36 and the arts and crafts for $36 to improve my mind.  I almost got more.  I spent more I guess on healthy groceries?  Some things are a little more expensive, like cocoa powder which will last a long time.  I got fresh jars, too.  The old ones sat for 1/2 year and must have a stench.

So Happy

I got my laptop plugged in, and I got my speaker connected to Blu Tooth.

People don't seem to get how bad it was I was in the nursing home, but of course I shouldn't be there is the real mentality.

Time still went by when I was gone.  Christmas came and went, apparently.  It's been 1/2 year since and next Christmas's planning is already upon me.

I can dance at a regular dance studio in a generic dance class for adults Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday.  The ballet school has its adult class on Fridays.  Sounds good so far.  I have a gym pass, maybe for the morning.

I want to dance and guess I will teach myself figure skating, too.

Well, that's okay.

Wen is great hair cleanser.  You can get a huge vat of it for like $150+.  That might be like $50 or under a bottle normally.  Well I forget it could have been much less for the smallest size..

Maybe, someday?

I can't afford a ferret.  I want to do other things.

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I edited that photo again.

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I updated one picture.

I added 3 pictures of me on the left side of this blog.

Do you think I can get a ferret by next year?

Just had lunch and waiting to go.

I'm gonna set up a ferret cage as I save money for it.

You can even attach tunnels to the cage.

Plan/Agenda

1. Order DoorDash this afternoon.

2. Order Instacart+.

3. Tomorrow, go to church food pantry.

4. Make sure to sort out my finances.

Also, I need to order pots and pans, baking sheets, and a spatula.

A firetruck with a smaller one just pulled in.

I'm all packed and ready to go!

"Always Look on the Bright Side of Life!"

I do like all these colors for different things.  This is a Flapper costume.  Imagine being from Florida and going from pink to black.

Why not say this about me being from Florida and moving to New Orleans rather than all this about my blood isn't from the European South, in the US?

She looks good.

Lovely Dance Outfit

This dance outfit is so nice, it's for Latin dancing and it's $639.00.

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I have links about having a baby and dating on the top left side of this blog.

Next stop: gym.  Next: modeling at talent agency.  Then: dating sites.

I want to focus on modeling and acting and then have kids along the way.

Oh, I'm going to the gym to bring down my A1C and maybe working when I'm better.

I think I'm gonna go to driving school, when I'm better.

I don't want the MP3 player, I'm using my gym pass.

Remember dance at least next month?  Tuition may be like $75/month?

Inventing kitchen gadgets sounds like my farming side of the family.

I might get the cheapest MP3 player on Amazon.com that has internet, so I can load my songs on there without risking my cheap laptop being incompatible.  Expensive computers are compatible with little dinky gadgets.  The MP3 player with internet I'm getting is $41.27.

Why????

So, when I jog and especially walk I will go longer listening to music.  I need to get back in shape.  In Orlando, it wasn't even really enough to jog 1/2 hour most days and walk 2 hours or more in a day.  I would walk 2 hours at one time often, it seemed, and of course I was often or usually wanting to listen to music.

I jogged and walked for 1/2 hour, without sunblock.  I always wear it usually, but I was in a choke-like experience for a first kind of time.  I didn't try to gag but hiccuped like 2 times.

Nursing Home

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Nursing Home?

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I exercised this morning with the seniors and just used the step machine in the physical therapy room, as I said I was doing!

Crystal

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All These Crumbs

Andre is happy conducting.

The girls of the orchestra are very competitive, but it's okay anyway because Andre loves them so much. "It's a vicious cycle."

Crystal is a normal person and is trapped. She gets the leftovers, the dirt, of society.

I'm gonna go to the physical therapy room.

So, I exercised this morning in the nursing home with the other residents.

It's just called an adult dance class, must have everything.  It's a great dance school, like Galloway's.

I found a school for dance.  Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, for about an hour.  I can wear fancy dance outfits, not too expensive / necessarily.

I might take dance instead of figure skate? for now.

Yay!

Yay!  People are excited about 5 days in good ole Germany!  Andre Rieu's music group.

Crystal

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Crystal's Employment Enjoyment

Andre referred Crystal to work at "the ice den" as suggested by Joanna, a lady who flirts with Andre.

There she was selling hot dogs.

She had been interested in figure skating herself and went there alone after work and skated every day that week.

She came home with 2 days off Sunday and Monday. She shook her snow globe fervently.

I'm gonna use natural eye drops, Bio True which I use for contacts.  It will relieve stress, strengthen the color, and make my eyes glow blue.

I'll order it as Subscribe and Save when I get my credit card at home.

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things you need to do

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"A Sight for Sore Eyes"

I'm craving home and spaghetti and meatballs.

I'm not really sure.... but, I think, I prefer chicken (or beef) bullion cubes to meat stock.

Another idea is to have a big bag you can pack if you need of canned food etc. and the beans and rice and stuff I guess, maybe a cooler.  You can have a backpack, too, with food for emergencies, maybe like space food or military food.  Also, things for on the go that aren't life threatening.