Monday, May 6, 2024

Money and Food

I got charged a sum of $80 extra.  It'd be nice to have $300 instead of $200 in my main bank.  At least, I have $60 in another.  I can get church food.  Each week might be $60 if I get 30 meals a week, 6 people x 5 days I think.  So, if I cook 3x a day that's 2 of those little meals each time I cook.  No use working if I have to be home to cook a lunch.  Work from home?  Hard?  I'm on Social Security, $2,045/month.

I'm gonna ask the kitchen in the nursing home for a salad, which is big, not a side salad.  Either they can bring it now or at supper.. maybe a snack now or I'll dig in my storage of food.

Nursing Home

I feel like such a mess left here, how do the older people take it?  I'm gonna go, though.

Feeling More Awake

I ate all of breakfast, and I feel much better.

I skipped the pile of cooked carrots for lunch.  They probably are not fresh!

I did sleep all morning.

Time to Go Home!

I need to eat more food, so I can do things, like have fun, practice violin, work...

Lunch

I just ate the nursing home lunch.

Why?

People like to get the good stuff regarding race while I don't.

Sunday, May 5, 2024

Question

What's not okay about how I look?

College

I might do dance at the community college here and get my AA.

College

If I can't get into Tulane maybe check out FSU? for Dance, and take Violin lessons/minor.

College

I want to get a BFA in Dance at Tulane and take violin lessons, or minor.

I'm set to do ballet here, first, and I can tell them I'm gonna audition or go there and audition after awhile, have to ask what they do there.

Facebook

(link)

Doris (& Barb)

Home!

So, "no, duh," if I go home, I probably will be scouting out to church pantries.

Fire! Fire!

Do you know when Europeans "stop, drop, and roll," like Americans do in a fire? when someone has hair that is not black or very dark brown.

Work

I want to work at the grocery store down the road.  There's an adventure to a big one.

So, I might go to college.

I might do a BBA in Finance at Loyola, online.

DoorDash

I want to try to do DoorDash for suppers.

Weekends are bad.  I need to go home.

College

I can do a BBA in Finance at Loyola online!

Bleh!

Threw up.

Playing a Game

I want my food.  I'm playing it safe being enrolled in a BBA in Finance online and selling my solo music with MIDI background.  I do want to do well in the study of music and arts, but I can't find the outer limits.

Question

Do people ever recognize when someone younger is a good talent?

Okay, so, here.

Let me get this.  We wanna stick to our work routine but make it safe home with our takeout and depend on people like Andre Rieu etc. to brighten our time.

Yuk.

Problem People

I can't believe there are people in the corner of the world/internet, lurking to come out and suggest you did something wrong and when you say you're not affected it just keeps happening to you like you're different.

Life

It's hard to decide what to do in life, sometimes.

For example, I like both music/dance and things like acting/communications.  I need to just focus on having fun and getting enough good food to eat.

Andre Rieu

Well, people like him, he even admits he's a Baby Boomer, but it's no biggie.

Andre Rieu

Andre Rieu could be the link to why people focus on tropical paradise as the center of the universe as opposed to classical music.  This century is going by fast.  Oh well.

Sitting Around

It feels like I sit around waiting for the 4x a day the nurses come in to give me insulin and sometimes medicine, pills.

That Site

People on film|boards talk in a way you have to be involved and reading a lot quickly so I can't talk.

Question

Is fake Ellen a party pooper? about kids my age?

Did someone say...

..."bitch slap?"

Hm.

I like her, but here's a funny game.

Why does Petra (Mullejans) the puppy pee on herself?  It seems kinda selfish, like a routine and looks at me like what?  It's like you said you were like god to me.  I didn't say it, but you did.

My DoorDash of the Day

I ordered Wendy's because lunch was so wacky and yucky.

I got a small combo, chicken. I was gonna get Chick-fil-A, but it's closed.

Question

Why can't people treat me 100%?  Remember Freiburger and petrified Germany?

DoorDash Time of Today

Nursing home food is disgusting, again.

Opposition

I was so holistic and healthy-looking and pretty healthy then and pretty in that way.  This is like the opposite, it's perverted Christina.  They worked hard over the years and never let up.  The mentality is that I'm in trouble and don't deserve to eat well.  I am gonna sell Frilly maybe in June, if it's only $208 total.  I might sell my singing, too, for only $20 unlimited, across like all big stores.

(Big) Crime

The people monitoring me in private work hard to make sure I don't make it in life.

I know I wasn't perverted and was not disgusting.  They've been impersonating to me that Ellen DeGeneres would or did try to prove I could become something else bad and that for whatever random reason I deserved it.  They are trying to say it's not possible that other people are already like that.  I forget how, but they made me panic and feel bad, and I already had problems not wanting to go out into the house with my family home from college.

I know I was gonna even fix myself up even more and they took even that aesthetic away from me, my makeover.  I know people panic'd, like saying to themselves nervously like, 'But no" or hating me with all their might as the reason they could say I had to go down, as their last wish against me, like I did something that deserved that.

Yay!

I found a cool place I can take ballet that fits in adults.

Frilly

by me now

link

Going Back Central 🗺

Mayday! Mayday! 🛩

Frilly is, like, 16. She's out of the baby grade and now a child.

She has beautiful hair of reddish orange gold and platinum blonde. It swirls at the ends a little below her shoulders. Her bangs bounce, like her curls, sprung down.

Her eyes are beautiful watery blue. Her skin is flushed with a nice gold tint on cream skin.

She knows how to quickly make her own clothes. She has like a robe for a dress, but it's short, especially as she's a child. The sleeves are a little wide and cupped at the cuffs. It's a beautiful rose material. The cuffs are pale pink, as for the dress's kind of collar and the sash or bow ribbon, made of the same material as the dress. There are lovely buttons going to the side on the sleeve area. The material is nice and thick similar to a fuzzy toy sculpture feel, sorta dense but soft. It's beautiful and flowing and swings but doesn't reveal underneath. She has the pants under that show a little below the dress. It's also pale pink with cups. She has her bag, backpack. It's like an animal, very nice.

She sees Andre and is quite enamored.

They are going on a sojourn, a big trip, by sea, a nice cruise ship! Mighty shall she sail!

She has a friend named Annabelle she likes to talk to. Annabelle dreams of meeting a prince someday and is a lovely violinist!

She has another friend named Christina who surprises her sometimes by showing that she follows her interests.

There's a little girl named Emma she likes to help. She helps her with the others.

There are many other popular girls she likes to jam with, as well, some she doesn't even know the name of but knows by face. Some are in the orchestra, and many just come and hang out and go to the concerts and wait and have fun in town.

So, they get on a plane and get to the edge of the cruise ship. Frilly remembers going to the submarine in Antarctica. Andre is interacting with some people, and everyone else is, too. Frilly goes up to the area he is without knowing, and he eyes her and tells her to come and he lifts her, now a beautiful 16 year old, and holds onto her on the seasick ship where everyone gets cabin fever.

He socializes with some people and they all huddle together. Frilly is silent, and Andre addresses her. She calls him "Mister." He tells he to go to sleep as he gets from her bag, fixes her back brace on her and the braces on her ankles. He holds her and everyone is still huddling and growing more silent as the ship sails on. Frilly dreams of seeing whales. She wakes up and asks if she can buy something with her money. He lets her go. He talks to some other girls nearby. They are all scared of the ocean. They are sick thinking there may be a storm.

It's time to turn in. Andre socializes with some people his age and later treats some children, in a room. He brings Frilly to his cabin after that, after she plays around while he is with the others. He lets her take her bath and comes in to check her out and helps her bathe.

It's actually the holiday season, and so the "cabin" is decorated for Christmas sorta. It has rainbow lights, the little ones. There is a fireplace. All the cabins are nice. There is even a drawing room.

Of course, there is a kitchen to help with food, but food is prepared for them, too. So, he feeds her, and she is all excited, like a baby eating baby-food. She is dressed nicely with little booties and her hair "pulled back" by a ribbon. It is adorned as green and orange largely with flowers and some pink with yellow in the centers of the flowers. She goes to her den where she sleeps on a bed and there's a chair and computer/TV screen etc. She plays in there. Andre steps out for awhile to see some people and alone. He comes back in and showers and then says they can read a children's book. She sits on some furniture and he sits in a chair and she looks down at the book. It's very short. Then, he puts on a TV show or movie he likes. Frilly goes to post about Tim Burton. She falls asleep and then Andre turns out the light later and falls asleep himself.

Andre is up and prepares coffee and some snack, gets ready, helps get Frilly ready since she's there etc. and she goes out early and explores, with her bag and lovely outfit from her suitcase.

Frilly spots some whales and dolphins and is riveted!

Finally, they arrive. Their stuff is taken to a hotel and put in their rooms in advance somehow. There are some ghost tours there of well repute that they are going to undertake later.

They go to a huge building. Frilly is dressed in a lot of blue, largely and strongly some "royal blue" color. There is also white in her dress. She has a kind of beret beanie on, too. It's beautiful on the lovely hair. She has nice heels on her boots. Her dress is short. There's a scarf tie on it.

So, they straddle the premises to the top and watch the screen for all the statistics and see figures of little planes coming and going.

Numbers. Letters.

Frilly goes with Emma and they look at the Santa Claus screen, empty as it's not Christmas, yet. However, there is a mailbox for Santa.

Figures are reported as they stand around feeling important in a way.

There is a quaint, authentic, old feel.

Finally it is time to descend. The ghost tour is waiting, too.

Saturday, May 4, 2024

High School & College & Grad School

After School - Violin Lessons

Year 1 - Salmen High School
1 - Dance Team?...
2 - English II - H/G
3 - Geometry - H/G
4 - Algebra II - H/G
5 - Biology I - H
6 - Career Orientation | Civics
7 - World Geography

Year 2 - Salmen High School
1 - Dance Team?...
2 - English III - H/G/AP
3 - Advanced Math / Trigonometry - H/G/AP
4 - Chemistry - H
5 - World History - H?
6 - Talented Music - Singing
7 - Talented Theater

Year 3 - Salmen High School
1 - Dance Team?...
2 - English IV - H/G/AP
3 - Calculus - H/G/AP
4 - Physics - H
5 - American History - H/G/AP
6 - Talented Music - Singing
7 - Talented Theater

Year 4 - Salmen High School
1 - Dance Team?...
2 - PE
3 - PE | Health
4 - Free Enterprise | 
5 - 
6 - 
7 - 

College - Loyola University New Orleans - BM Vocal Music Performance & Ballet Minor & Dance Team

"Famous Singer!"

Exercise YouTube

I out my exercise YouTube on my blog under My Stuff.

https://www.youtube.com/@Christina-ExerciseSchedule/playlists

Who wants to talk to anyone?

Who wants to talk to anyone, like my age?

https://youtube.com/shorts/NbLUOj2QnFs?si=gu1uAhIiqPHTawRk

I think, who wants to talk to them, but I feel people noticed my dad was not born in 1960 and I was born in 1986 and said I was like people born in the 1960s, 1970s, and early 1980s.  Forget that.

Then, I find people I like, maybe attractive Baby Boomers who might like me, are trying to win them over, like it's a fun game that's good for them.

Gymnastics - Part of a Handstand

I started to go into some handstands on both the right and left sides, on my gymnastics mat in the nursing home, in my room.

Gymnastics - Getting in Shape

I'm practicing my gymnastics bridge, once in awhile from time to time.  I have a gymnastics exercise mat here in the nursing home.

Germany's Storage

Germany stores weeks of grains for invasion/war, drought...  So, it's not dumb. What if it's not safe outside, it'd be good to have food in store in your house for a few days at least.

Food Solution - by Me

Typical groceries are such a waste.  Get things people like, Asian groceries or takeout, more restaurants.

Kids

Why can't I watch kids succeed?

Hopelessness

Why are leaders so hopeless?  Not much is in store yet, for those of us who are not so hopeless.

My Age

Who is anyone my age with a family and kids at whatever kinda time in life to tell me not to talk to Baby Boomers if I do?

DoorDash

I ordered Chick-fil-A and an ice cream from Dairy Queen, extreme chocolate.

At Chick-fil-A, I got 2 sandwiches, one spicy, with extra pickles.  I might take some off.

I know..

I know, it's not about me? at all.  It's not about my kids maybe.  It's about others.. and they're not kids.

Friday, May 3, 2024

Unfair

If Andre Rieu was stuck in jail kinda like me you know for no reason and forced to eat fattening unappetizing food he'd probably not be over and above his musical group, too.  I don't want any people to be above me, maybe Andre Rieu.  But don't go everyone jumping on the bandwagon.

What Sucks More

So, Andre Rieu's group is Andre Rieu to me but Andre Rieu is to everyone else.

The "Burning Question"

So, the question is, what do I have to do with Andre Rieu's musical group being so mean to Emma Kok?  I know the Netherlands is mean, too, but not like Andre Rieu's group.  I'm not "trying to copy" Andre Rieu.

Andre Rieu and His People



Maybe, Andre Rieu's music group was theoretically calculated to have been mean to Emma Kok so much because of me and following the Netherlands, which some are from in the group.  Nothing especially beastly about Emma Kok because she's just a normal girl.

Anyway, in this video, I caught that I was just enjoying Andre Rieu like anyone can chose and appreciating the others and seeing what's up.  I thought some or overall they thought they were Andre Rieu but to me.  I think some people are a little iffy like maybe something's up about his interest in me like if he just says he wants Joni then there's something going on to me.

That can't be all now but sums up a lot.

Moving Someday

So, I might move to Alaska next.  I just have to save money or sell my book.  I'd like to move to the Los Angeles area.

I really wanted to live in Europe but only speak 1 language, so for now I can move around the U.S. or to English speaking places?

Cuddling

I'd cuddle with anyone, you know if they're clean etc.

Ready

I think all these "blondes" are ready and the same mold.

My Fitness

I want to get in shape more than I trust college.. maybe someday.

Freedom and Awareness

"...and that flag still stands for freedom, and they can't take that away."


I'm a professional enough person and I'm already "on the ball" in my case in life that I know of.

Dance

I don't wanna watch people fail at dance, I wanna go myself when I'm ready and do it.  I guess I'll look at the gym schedule.

College Was Big

College, you're supposed to be ready to "make it" like better than anything before, not like the tallest or shortest but best.

Like, dance at Loyola, they seem to have some modern dance thing.

Strive

to dance in the dance team at Loyola

I want to do ballet in the Loyola opera.

... I'm wondering how to do the Violin major.  Maybe no singing yet.

Edit

I added French to my last post for college, not sure in what way like major, minor...

Idea for High School

Year 1 - Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
1 - Religion I
2 - English - Honors
3 - Math - Honors
4 - Science - Honors
5 - History - Honors
6 - French I
7 - Art I
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe, Violin Lessons

Year 2 - Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
1 - Religion II
2 - English - Honors
3 - Math - Honors
4 - Science - Honors
5 - History - Honors
6 - French II
7 - Art II
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe, Violin Lessons

Year 3 - Salmen High School
1 - English - Gifted | Advanced Placement
2 - History - Gifted | Advanced Placement
3 - PE
4 - Health | Free Enterprise
5 - French III
6 - Talented Art
7 - Dance Team...?
After School - Violin Lessons

Year 4 - Salmen High School
1 - French IV
2 - Dance Team...?
3 - 
4 - 
5 - 
6 - 
7 - 
After School - Violin Lessons

College - Loyola University New Orleans? - BM Violin Performance, Ballet & Singing Minor, Dance Team, French

Little Girl Falls

Looks so ideal.  Maybe certain values.

3:29:33

Bed?

I wanna go to bed, but my nurse isn't here, yet..

My Crowded Room

My room is so crowded with the bed in the middle.  I need to reorganize it.

😁 Disneyland ~ (Paris)

My Right

I have the right to look dazzlingly good and to work on it.

Supper

It's almost time for supper, in the nursing home.  I posted about our Kentucky Derby on my Facebook, today.

Wednesday, May 1, 2024

Why People Like Classical Music

It is like the world of wonder of a child ... CHILD HOOD'S TOY LAND ... END LESS JOY LAND ?

I recorded this:

Hunger Quelled

I don't feel as hungry as usual.

Takeout | "Chinese"

It's busy dinnertime.  I'm not all Chinese so shouldn't apply.

Posting Online

When I post on social media or a forum, it's not that I get tired of posting, I run out of people to talk to.

Tuesday, April 30, 2024

Responsibility

I feel responsible for where I live, like I'm "not a kid anymore" not living with my parents or something.

Savings

I have a good number of savings to play with.

Savings 1 - Regular
Savings 2 - Things I Need
Savings 3 - Extra Expenses
Savings 4 - Grand Savings

Money

I have 4 savings accounts and 2 checking accounts, at Huntington Bank and an account at Key Bank, the Ohio bank.

1 checking account is the main one for bills to come out and stuff maybe or the other for random things.

1 savings is regular.  Savings 2 is for things like rent allowed to pay late.  Savings 3 is for things I might use if I want.  Savings 4 is for big savings.  If I get one more it'll be for more big savings but not the grand savings.

Being Attractive

You have to be really attractive if you're born around 1984 or 1983.

College Online

Certificate in Commercial Music @ Liberty University in Violin

It might only take 2 semester time.  The courses are 8 weeks.  8 months total.  A little over 1/2 year.

School Lunches

I'm watching a video of school lunches by the decade, and 1960/s was pizza and 1980/s was chicken nuggets, 1970/s hamburger.  Apple juice with pizza, soda with burger.

Question for "Baby Boomer" Women

Do you care if younger people complained about high school?

A Find

They said in prison, malnutrition causes mental disorders.

Why if I find something do people say it can't be because I'm not all White and others can?

College

Liberty University

Commercial Music - Bachelor (of Science?)

Violin? (if I stay, otherwise, I know another modern music college with it?...)

Online College

Whites Around Non-Whites

White people like being around non-Whites because it's a chance to open up and not feel so tested about how White they look by other Whites.

Prisoners Are Mentally Sane Sometimes/Often

So, prisoners aren't treated like they are mentally ill.

Weird

People with mental illnesses when institutionalized and adults are not treated much better than prisoners?

"In prison cells-"

Are people counting on me to be a prisoner?

Degrees Online

The main college degrees online that are for more money seem to be more business degrees.

How is it?

Is it about what your parents seem like or how you turn out?

Question

If this childhood thing is about my possible children, then why ruin my career?

Dream

I was like in a place where it was half one thing half another, like a car and building.  It was like Emma Kok was singing, a young girl who sings with Andre Rieu, at least now, solo, and not much in a group or among others.  My mom was there and talking and her voice turned more smooth Dutch.  I'm used to hearing it and can't repeat it.  She used to reprimand me not to mimic her when I was like 3, 4, or 5.  So, I think it was "12 Days of Christmas" we were going through.  I think she was getting upset and I was getting annoyed.  She drove me to a building like for a library or where people come together to do business or something and there were stairs and a 2nd lofted floor that wasn't too small.  I kept cursing before, using the "n" word and whoever and whatever popped in my mind.  I kept saying leave me alone, as a complex number was about where people were watching and helping against me, though they all seemed to feel sorry for me.  After awhile, no sound would come out.  Some kind of police type men took my cell phone upon suggestion, and the ladies were mad at my mom for it.  I said they could watch me use it and I want to see the orchestra.  Before, the site wasn't working and it was asked is it always this complicated.  One little African American or "Black" man said I was under arrest, but he was small kinda like a leprechaun after awhile, too.  They said my mom must have some problem being so short.  Finally, I was so mad I fell back on a short bookshelf and it fell.  Some of this dream was interesting in feel, I was just saying stuff like, "Leave me alone!" in a windy sorta voice like shouting.  Lots of people were surrounding kinda, maybe like 10 spread out, a lot of rather obese but nice women.  It was pretty long, mostly about what was wrong with me and me trying to shout to leave me alone after I had been cursing to my mom's anger.  She kept talking back constantly in this dream.

Dream

It's hard to remember how it started out.

I met the coach or saw him, I guess it was like it was Andre Rieu but looked different.

So, there were classes and I finally was to pick one.  There may have been a few on a board.  I was also to play basketball and it was big and he looked different or like he was someone else and he was also that coach.  He didn't teach all the classes.  So, lingering, I guess if you look hard enough for your dreams and remember it's there it won't go away without your catching it more.  So, the class I got on this electric old board was "The Waltz."  There was some message too about it.  I didn't get to go in this dream.  I did play basketball, and the ball was so big and hard to throw in my sleep, you know?  It started out maybe I was late or something but maybe not maybe just on time and I put on my backpack guess didn't get it in a locker and didn't want it stolen.  Didn't know about the lockers.  The coach was looking like he should be short, thin, and good looking but bald for basketball and then like what should he be tall to be a music teacher.  So, I made some passes.  I remember practice we were in line to shoot and I took long like at a festival game though trying to position.  The ball maybe seemed to get bigger and heavier or at least harder for me and in the end it was so hard to move.  I made more passes.  There may have been something about the music or performing like a recital in a big room is the feel, but I dunno.  I really wanted to do the music, but all I did was basketball with the music people.  I remember the team members now.  Many were obese and big and kinda tall, boys I think mostly or all.  Some had cute features to make them feel good, and I was thinking I don't do it to conform but because I want to, no end or maybe point.  Like their thumb/s or fingers.  I did actually throw the ball in my dreams like the only one and always a pass and no one ever got it.  It was hard, like a warbling environment.  It must have been hard to concentrate.  I was thinking and yearning for the music, eager to see the people and teacher of course.  It wasn't like I was in his orchestra, and the people were different.  It was more like a school in a way and there may have been 3 teachers and maybe they did different things maybe not.  They didn't seem like much of comrades, though.  The "orchestra" and basketball team was all young people like we were in high school but maybe not I, ageless.  I think the basketball was big and blue.  The basketball was for our well-being and exercise and I guess so violence would not "break out."  There certainly was different tension but lots of "team spirit."  It's like we were sane but uptight.  It was a bit.  Of course it was all in anticipation for Andre Rieu at least secretly with me more.  It still didn't change things.  So, I didn't want to wake up from this dream.  I have a feeling of a dong dong, dong dong, as I look back and hear something now, guitar music on TV, and I wake up and sleep, wake up and sleep, like it's time.

Monday, April 29, 2024

Remember a better world?

Remember, bad Italians etc. think I don't get to have fun.

Well!

The people monitoring me in private can't act in place of others I like.

Counting Money

I have nothing better to do than count money.

Shit!

I was feeling really crappy and went to take a shit and feel much better, now.

If I landed...

If I had a fancy house, I would have it beautifully light slightly bluish green with gold shiny borders.  I'm ready to take this world into its future!

Happy Content?

😭  Do you go home every day and come back refreshed and 100% perfect in life?  When you come here for the shits and giggles and have a good time, on film|boards.

The Social World is Hibernating

The world used to be more social.  Now, everyone does their thing in private.  Like, memes and cliches.  Like, things that you'd find'd be a big deal, like logical things you conclude.