Supper in Nursing Home



AA

I might have to take remedial math again and the math requirement the following semester.  I guess I can take science each semester, too.  Still graduate this year at 39.

Dollar Stores

There are like 3.  I want one more in a back lot or a long the road.

Work

I could work at a Dollar store, again, too, and look good in the neighborhood.  Maybe, not quit.  Retail sounds fun enough.

The AA?

If I go to college and do the AA...

There is some intro class.

I just need 1 regular math and 2 sciences.  I will finish in 1 year with a diploma rather than fart around and lose money.

I don't have money to do anything, like farm.

"Violin"

I think violin practicing increases over time as a way of life?

I play for fun, but I also play with or for others.

"School in the Fall"

I can take a class and raise my GPA a point?

Just think, I work some of June and all of July and all or some of August.  I might have an extra $2000+ if you count savings from SSI.  I might have some extra money each month.  I can take 1 college course and do nothing else.  I might go to Tri-C!  I guess I'll finish math, and if I were done I'd do 1 of 2 needed science courses.  Maybe, I'll work again after awhile into the semester or like also for the Spring and maybe also take a course if it's easy enough, but maybe not with the cooking?  I dunno, maybe.  I don't need much time to keep up on film|boards.

So, math in the Fall, math in the Spring?  I only took 1 remedial math so far.  I can do Sciences after that, and I'll have my AA.  I might be able to do 2 classes at once after this semester.  I'll be able to afford it, too...

Well

Well, I'm looking forward to eating and saving money and from working.

Work

I would work full time, but I need more time at home to cook and catch up on eating and eat more!  I would prefer to be a stay home mom to avoid my kids eating frozen meals.

Where It Looks Like I'll Work

I was wondering... grocery store, Save-a-Lot, Walgreens, CVS, grocery store, ... McDonald's, if Pizza Hut is hiring, Burger King, family diner... CVS looks most likely, especially with my skin color.

More Expenses Later

I guess in July or when I have more money by then, I'll get the natural blonde mask and shampoo.

Money Money Money Money

I'm just getting kitchen stuff and thinking of working part time near home.  Maybe, I'll stop and go to school sometime.

Update

I posted all the college classes I finished on the RIGHT side of this blog down a bit.

Social Media

I'm creating my own social media.

My Problems

I have other big problems in my life.

- MySpace is gone.

- film|boards is run by a bunch of young delinquents, as in posters not admin.

- Twitter probably has the same people making fun of me lingering as celebrities or whatnot.

- Facebook is for Baby Boomers, who don't interact with me much.

Question

So, why is it that Andre Rieu is always laughing at me, too?

Skating

I need the money for kitchenware in June and guess I'll go in July.

Thanks

Thanks to Andre Rieu for reprimanding my younger brother about how I suffered more now.

First

The mental hospital said I needed reduced meals for diabetes when I was still hungry.  The food is even worse in the nursing home, disgusting fattening snacks, too.

You are shit.

Cleveland.

No one cares when I tell them I DON'T LIKE THE FOOD AND I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

I don't have "Joni."  Always that she's better.

Fake

Andre hasn't spoken up and is bad news.  He isn't positive in his persona here.  I can't give it up.  I'm trying to fix it.

I'm sick of these people.

So

So Andre because of these people you formed yourself an enemy of me.

Sidetracked

Andre Rieu thinks there's something big out there investing in fake Joni.  Fake meaning doesn't really see her but uses her against me with his smirk.

Suspicious

It's getting suspicious how no one cares about Joni but Andre Rieu.

Problem?

Is Aesthetics Andre Rieu's only problem?

Well.

Just pretend.

Well

To tell you the truth I can't stand Joni as though I'm not pretty and it's my fault.

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That shows how you suck, here in America.

Problem

Black girls are so annoying how they interject and cut you off when something's important.

Problem

Other people threatening me really gets to me when I'm trapped in a little room without a kitchen, also the length of time and the present time.

Position

Holding out, I still have options, more than other people.  I blend with the kids.

Pissed

I'm like a kid pissed off who wants a break from its life, not a successful adult as a ^top secret agent^.

Hm.

I wonder if I can work after I get in shape rollerblading this summer..

Problem

I need to be alone!  No one is being appropriate around me.  Is that so much to ask?  I deserve a lot of money from school, being good and working harder than others.

The Good Stuff

It's all in the commercials.  The hot Hollywood incoming material with the drumroll presentation.  I have on National Geographic too and even it's not quite as fresh.

Nothing

It's just me and the Italians cracking jokes against me.

Andre Rieu

What is up with Andre Rieu acting like I'm bothering him saying he doesn't do much to affect my life?  It's just a fact he denies.  I'm just talking!  Try it sometime?  What's all this claiming everything is about you?  I can't tell you how upset I am now.  At least soon I'll be home, and I can go rollerblading.

Politely Disagree

I politely disagree that my younger brother not give me my money even if SSI acts like he shouldn't and without explaining it to me.  Barb is crazy, forget it.  Don't have to explain to her.  And leave me alone about how I talk you stupid Americans who think everything is sarcastic *beep*.

So...

So, I'm saying that you should be nice to my younger brother for his race and that other people are much worse in my life.  I didn't count, so I dunno what's going through your head about what he does and his race.  I call against many people racism with my younger brother and wish I could report to a psychologist officially.  They would though probably hand you over to shit so maybe that isn't the right source.  I guess me posting here kinda does it.

See, the only thing is my younger brother seems dangerous.  He was supposed to give me my money that SSI wouldn't let me have.

He made a decision that I wasn't crap when my parents died.

I dunno, I don't like how I was crapped on with Joni using him against me being mean or whatever basically being mean to him and acting coy like before, not saying it, but making me think basically I'm selfish not to want to die now.  To clarify to Barb reading this, I don't want to die, Joni just acted a way that made me feel she said it and then is nice to me like she just had to get it out.  She acts like I'm ugly and it's my fault and she's stupid about my race.  What a worthless family I have.  They all only dream of Joni and won't leave me alone.  I don't care about your tool with Joni.  Why do I have to say all this?  Maybe, some people don't know yet.  It seems they know and it doesn't matter.  You're not more talkative than me, I want to talk to you and you don't.  You keep acting like I don't like to talk.  I'm just polite and not shit and my parent have crappy taste in clothes and are crap to you.  Oh we have money for nothing because they had my younger brother.  (No negative connotation.)

Pass-ment of Judgement's

I wonder if England would give a care if Barb or Joni or anyone wanted to compare my younger brother Michael in particular like he's related to my younger girl cousin Ashley.  Funny, no one's mentioned England, so much.  I don't think there's anything hidden, and obviously they should not be compared.  Still, you continue to fight me, I believe, but I'm not sure who is.  Anyway, Michael is fine in the family.  He doesn't impose himself more than others.  I bet you didn't know that.  Answer?  If it's a smart aleck answer, I'll not entertain it.  I have to say you often seem to lose it and act very abusive, like it's similar to me in some way as an insult..

Yea, I feel like they act like they are better than me or something.  Like, maybe I have a problem to them, instead, rather?  Of course, this is not true of me and not something I like.  They think I have something to do with them, but they never talk much, like they are "mutes."  Something is wrong with everyone.  They can't say anything to me!

What is Andre Rieu or Pierre Rieu, is youngest son, doing to my younger brother?  He's acting rather strangely.  Is anyone gonna fix it or is it gonna be this way the rest of his life?  I say that whoever did it is racist.  Andre Rieu is scared and won't ever comfort me pretty much if someone hurts me, just to say it quick though.  It really annoys me.  Look he doesn't talk to anyone who cares so much about someone who just looks good? any person I'd mean though.  I'm sick of this for a year.  I know the excuse is the people monitoring me in private used to torture me.  So, my life was interrupted and I couldn't even dream about him.  I still have a hard time.  Still, like, Tim Burton may seem apologetic, but he doesn't satisfy people talking to him but gets all this attention as though he does.  All ya'll's Baby Boomers not gonna deserve anything.  ...And I mean it.  I gotta get outta crappy Cleveland's clinics.

So, Ashley, why not judge her closely with Joni and Barb?

Barb & Joni

Well, Barb and Joni, I keep getting secret messages from people watching me in private from you, and I already know in different ways it's worthless to try to talk to you because you don't answer or acknowledge me and my race is fine but you're still extra racist and to me.

My Money, Oh Well

Lejeune, stolen and made fun of.

Roller Blading in a RInk

I want to get roller blades and go to a skating rink this summer.

$3 once a week, and I saw one of the other days is $7.

Crystal

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Crystal

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Crystal

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Why?...

People don't like to talk to people...

Update

I added more to the left side of my blog.

Again!

I give up, think I'm just buying kitchenware... he he he

Nah.

I'd rather get some skates, any skates, sooner, even if they're, wide ones, for children.

Wait for Skates

Maybe, I can save money from June and July and get more expensive rollerblades.

I have some shoe blades for at home I've used.

Nah.

I guess I'll get rollerblades.

I'll mostly be outside.

"Scratch that."

I might get the skates in June, so I "hit the ball running," there.  That means I only get pots and pans, and baking sheets, otherwise, for extra June expenses.

I'm getting a new credit card, too.  So, I can use it for a new EveryPlate account, every time I should get a new one.  We'll see if it works, though..

Skates in July

I think I want to get these skates in July instead of a nice keyboard.  The nice keyboard will be solid like a piano, with the pedals attached and look more like an upright piano than a keyboard, maybe, or partially..

The skates have a button in back that if you click it I think the skates come out, not sure about back in.

June will be for kitchenware.

I'm trying to get savings, too.  When I have savings, I might get a hamster and ask for what to do if I want to not have it anymore.

So, they're skate shoes.

The total with shipping is like $115.

You'll see this one even has breaks.

Someday, I will get roller blades and practice in a rink!

(Interesting) I'm leftover and mistreated.

People say the exemplary citizen is a woman who is in her 60s, today.

Younger generations are there to milk to those "bad" girls and boys born in the early to mid 1980s.

Okay, what happened to me who is always good and turns out attractive respectively because of being that way?  No one milks to me, I'm leftover.  I'm always in trouble since being watched in private and no one talks to me directly.  Like no one.  For years and years and years and years.

Prehistoric Times

If something happened and it was something I could have prevented if I had more money, no one will come over and help like in old times.

If a bear escaped from the zoo and ripped up the place while I was gone, then the police would do their job.

I'm coming back home from the nursing home, have been there once since, for 5-6 months out total.

My parents are not alive, and my younger brother is there with our money and won't help in times of crisis.  Then, I have a rich aunt who saves money.  Then, a bunch of other relatives who depend on her.

Selling My Music

Violin?  Who will I play with?  How will I get MIDI files easily?

I thought of 1 song to learn and record on a new keyboard by July.

There are some other songs I'd like to learn that may take longer to learn.

My Life

If you wouldn't have any problems being in Andre Rieu's orchestra, you shouldn't have to suffer if you are still as good and you aren't in it.

I decided to work and make money probably selling my book after I make money to help publish it.  I was told it was accepted to sell in bookstores, like B&N.  I might work at a grocery store near home, maybe in walking distance if possible, or a convenience store possibly.  I might go for full time since it's only 2 hours difference sometimes and you get to feel the whole day.  I will go home and relax and unwind maybe by 4-6.  I wake up and get to work in the morning, like 8-10.

I do believe in having fun in good ways at work even if it's at a store or factory.

How can I go on?

I can't take cues like a blonde and could "get lost in the mix."

Need to Not Waste Life, Just Thinking About That

There's no place and therefore way to devote your life to anything meaningful, anymore, like to take meaningful dance classes without people eyeball-ing you down.  Classical musicians are especially feisty, uppity and challenging.

People From up North With an Attitude

Do people from Up North always turn around and say there's something wrong with you and believe there is no point in life, socially?

Money Log 1

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Food Log

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Money

...and I don't have a credit card right now with that money or the money I transferred which takes a few days.  I get paid in a week.

Money

I had some pocket money you might say, leftover from Amazon charge or something that didn't take ... and I got macaroni and cheese and tuna with crackers.

Well

Evidence says yes, the purple shampoo will help make it look naturally like a blonde.

Hair

I think I will just use the purple shampoo for awhile and see if it turns blonde, not use the sun in which may make it more red.

Crystal

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Crystal

I started a new book.

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YouTube

I'm learning all the notes of the flute with a video without a flute here.

Andre Rieu

Andre Rieu accepts people other than me who don't even tolerate him.  I get in trouble for no reason, and here he comes! sauntering back to other people like I don' have s*x.

YouTube - Music

YouTube

He he he

Andre Rieu doesn't realize how bad most people have it..

When I Have Money

Oboe

Saving All My Money

for Food

Savings

June

YouTube

1st 2 Songs

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1st 2 songs

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1st 2 songs

Florida vs. New Orleans

Florida is more open than a lot of the New Orleans area people are that you see on reality TV etc.

YouTube

The 1st Song

Exercise

I just went on the sitting stair bike at the nursing home for half an hour again.

Ear Surgery

I cleaned both ears and they had a lot of wax and bled for the first time but not a lot piled up and hard and dark.  They bled, I think, near and at the end.  I was surprised, but I forgot to clean them usually when I wanted to like every time I bathe.

YouTube

I know I like the overture and maybe parts of the first song, the main theme.  I did play in this musical!

Flute

I want to play flute for musical theater.  I have a flute and piccolo at home.