What needs to change.

We're just spending time not on saying yea famous people can do Christina and others like her but how annoyed they are at others.

What to do next?

I'm looking for people.  😡

I wouldn't "rush" to Hollywood, no one is there for you.

It's like they made a healthcare field that went in the bathroom and closed the stall after it decided not to play in an orchestra after sitting with their fat hairy ass in band all day every day while everyone else suffered who waited to play violin or something.

The healthcare field has this slapstick and unhealthy attitude, as well.  People are too gullible to believe that healthcare is the only real thing that matters, since everything else is to do with eating food and meeting needs in life, like the blacksmith (metal worker) and the carpenter.

The healthcare field seems to feel it is different from others and also "special."  Why?  Because they will never tell you the whole truth in words.  They just, instead, look forlornly about prescribing medicines that are more "optional."  They won't tell you like how important it is not to skip one dose of insulin because *you might just skip* regularly.  For instance, I told them I needed my insulin and pills when I go home, and I didn't get told anything like that.  When a nurse was out, not often, they never said anything, neither, like it was cute to be silent and seemed not to want me to feel okay about answering.  When you see a free dietitian, for a maybe either brief meet or maybe a separate visit possibly though, they won't tell you how to eat your sugars and assume everyone is telling you not to eat any at all, for best possible results, like this is the end for you.

I put my groceries away, barely everything fit with the thawing turkey.

For lunch, instead of sandwiches, I'm having spaghetti and meatballs.

Paranoid, I still feel haunted that people think I deserve bad things... and I'm on my own with diabetes.

I took out the trash, then paid rent.  I just have to go through and throw out old mail and some other things, do my laundry > throw out some stuff, wash clothes, wash bedding.  I'm good to go!

Extra expenses were the canned soup in the nursing home for $36 and the arts and crafts for $36 to improve my mind.  I almost got more.  I spent more I guess on healthy groceries?  Some things are a little more expensive, like cocoa powder which will last a long time.  I got fresh jars, too.  The old ones sat for 1/2 year and must have a stench.

So Happy

I got my laptop plugged in, and I got my speaker connected to Blu Tooth.

People don't seem to get how bad it was I was in the nursing home, but of course I shouldn't be there is the real mentality.

Time still went by when I was gone.  Christmas came and went, apparently.  It's been 1/2 year since and next Christmas's planning is already upon me.

I can dance at a regular dance studio in a generic dance class for adults Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday.  The ballet school has its adult class on Fridays.  Sounds good so far.  I have a gym pass, maybe for the morning.

I want to dance and guess I will teach myself figure skating, too.

Well, that's okay.

Wen is great hair cleanser.  You can get a huge vat of it for like $150+.  That might be like $50 or under a bottle normally.  Well I forget it could have been much less for the smallest size..

Maybe, someday?

I can't afford a ferret.  I want to do other things.

Update

I edited that photo again.

Update

I updated one picture.

I added 3 pictures of me on the left side of this blog.

Do you think I can get a ferret by next year?

Just had lunch and waiting to go.

I'm gonna set up a ferret cage as I save money for it.

You can even attach tunnels to the cage.

Plan/Agenda

1. Order DoorDash this afternoon.

2. Order Instacart+.

3. Tomorrow, go to church food pantry.

4. Make sure to sort out my finances.

Also, I need to order pots and pans, baking sheets, and a spatula.

A firetruck with a smaller one just pulled in.

I'm all packed and ready to go!

"Always Look on the Bright Side of Life!"

I do like all these colors for different things.  This is a Flapper costume.  Imagine being from Florida and going from pink to black.

Why not say this about me being from Florida and moving to New Orleans rather than all this about my blood isn't from the European South, in the US?

She looks good.

Lovely Dance Outfit

This dance outfit is so nice, it's for Latin dancing and it's $639.00.

Update

I have links about having a baby and dating on the top left side of this blog.

Next stop: gym.  Next: modeling at talent agency.  Then: dating sites.

I want to focus on modeling and acting and then have kids along the way.

Oh, I'm going to the gym to bring down my A1C and maybe working when I'm better.

I think I'm gonna go to driving school, when I'm better.

I don't want the MP3 player, I'm using my gym pass.

Remember dance at least next month?  Tuition may be like $75/month?

Inventing kitchen gadgets sounds like my farming side of the family.

I might get the cheapest MP3 player on Amazon.com that has internet, so I can load my songs on there without risking my cheap laptop being incompatible.  Expensive computers are compatible with little dinky gadgets.  The MP3 player with internet I'm getting is $41.27.

Why????

So, when I jog and especially walk I will go longer listening to music.  I need to get back in shape.  In Orlando, it wasn't even really enough to jog 1/2 hour most days and walk 2 hours or more in a day.  I would walk 2 hours at one time often, it seemed, and of course I was often or usually wanting to listen to music.

I jogged and walked for 1/2 hour, without sunblock.  I always wear it usually, but I was in a choke-like experience for a first kind of time.  I didn't try to gag but hiccuped like 2 times.

Nursing Home

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Nursing Home?

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I exercised this morning with the seniors and just used the step machine in the physical therapy room, as I said I was doing!

Crystal

Link

All These Crumbs

Andre is happy conducting.

The girls of the orchestra are very competitive, but it's okay anyway because Andre loves them so much. "It's a vicious cycle."

Crystal is a normal person and is trapped. She gets the leftovers, the dirt, of society.

I'm gonna go to the physical therapy room.

So, I exercised this morning in the nursing home with the other residents.

It's just called an adult dance class, must have everything.  It's a great dance school, like Galloway's.

I found a school for dance.  Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, for about an hour.  I can wear fancy dance outfits, not too expensive / necessarily.

I might take dance instead of figure skate? for now.

Yay!

Yay!  People are excited about 5 days in good ole Germany!  Andre Rieu's music group.

Crystal

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Crystal's Employment Enjoyment

Andre referred Crystal to work at "the ice den" as suggested by Joanna, a lady who flirts with Andre.

There she was selling hot dogs.

She had been interested in figure skating herself and went there alone after work and skated every day that week.

She came home with 2 days off Sunday and Monday. She shook her snow globe fervently.

I'm gonna use natural eye drops, Bio True which I use for contacts.  It will relieve stress, strengthen the color, and make my eyes glow blue.

I'll order it as Subscribe and Save when I get my credit card at home.

Update

Right Side of Blog

things you need to do

Exercise

"A Sight for Sore Eyes"

I'm craving home and spaghetti and meatballs.

I'm not really sure.... but, I think, I prefer chicken (or beef) bullion cubes to meat stock.

Another idea is to have a big bag you can pack if you need of canned food etc. and the beans and rice and stuff I guess, maybe a cooler.  You can have a backpack, too, with food for emergencies, maybe like space food or military food.  Also, things for on the go that aren't life threatening.

Good survival health food is soup made of a lot of beans.  You can add vegetable stock.  If you have, you can throw in vegetables to strengthen/enhance the flavor, maybe chop them up small or take them out when done soaking in the hot stock.  Church food pantries give out beans and rice to just anyone, throw it in the cellar.

I got vegetable stock on my list to make bean soup.  I can throw in vegetables as I go to strengthen the broth if I have some.  The church food pantries give beans, a lot.

Before You Die

What's with the thinking that you have to move to Florida for a certain kind of dreamy and contemporary times life?

Update

Online Quizzes

Right Side of Blog - "My Stuff"

Grocery Review

I forgot 1 thing I got.

$186

1- ingredients of 6 cheese pizzas
2- ingredients of tacos with most ground meat packed
3- 2 large packs of chicken thighs (more than whole chickens) w/peanut butter and coconut cream
4- lots of angel hair spaghetti and meatballs
5- jalapeno cream cheese poppers
6- macaroni and tuna fish
7- egg salad

Church Food Pantries (w/Bus Pass)

Game Plan

I bought a "friendship bracelet maker" to pass the time, so the last steps before moving home are a better one.

I was thinking of jazz trumpet for Christmas, but I think I will get all snazzy and jazzy and do pop Christmas at a both in the library or guitar center.

I wonder if I'll beat Andre Rieu with a Christmas "plan."  Jazzy trumpet certain Christmas carols...

Like "The First Noel."

I just decided I like the trumpet for jazz.

Groceries

I didn't think I could get approximately a month's worth of food and not just backup canned food all in one Instacart+ order.

Mass

It was very good.

They seem well.

June Food $180

Dinner-Like

1. Ingredients for 6 Pizzas

2. Largest Taco Meat Pack to Freeze

3. More Chicken Than 2 Chickens (w/Peanut Butter and Coconut)

4. Lots of Angel Hair Spaghetti and Frozen Meatballs With the Sauce and Parmesan

Lunch-Like

1. Egg Salad

2. Macaroni and Tuna

3. 2 Packs of Hot Dogs and Buns

To My Friends on Facebook Etc.

Bees

I just realized helicopters look like bee's and buzz like them, too.  Birds look like planes, I just realized.

Online Church

I'm watching church here this morning.

Link

Nice House

It reminds me of my aunt Barb's.

Did you know...

...My blood sugar stayed well below 200 and once 200 tested 4x a day when I felt so good about buying all the pillows and the lazy chair?  8 king pillows and a king comforter.  I slept well that night.  It was like 170 or 180.  That's a big difference than usual and all day.  I did eat well, too, in a way.

Stocking Up

I think I'm getting enough food for the month for like $180.

- ingredients to make 6 pizzas

- largest amount of taco meat

- more chicken than a whole chicken

- lots of angel hair spaghetti

Yay

At least, I'm going home, Tuesday!  I can't wait!  I'm getting 8 King size pillows for my bed and a King size comforter, and a lazy chair.

Feeling Blank

Are you used to socializing at school?  I'm sure you still have your parents and other family.  I don't.

I feel a bad reaction right now, I finished a painting in less than 1 day, and I posted it on film|boards and Facebook, and I have a feeling of bad interception, like I can't walk up to a stranger and have them turn a glance, like a stone statue.  I can't depend on people cuz they don't care about me if I'm not superwoman form my past yet.

"I'm so happy!"

I'm so happy I reduced my budget by basically subtracting breakfast foods etc. that seems to last about a month and from almost $200 to maybe under $150.  It's sandwiches for lunch of mainly vegetables, a tomato wrap, and also cheese, red wine vinegar, and oil, like Subway.  There can be like 6 pizzas.  Tacos, the largest size of meat.  And more chicken thighs than a whole chicken's worth with it's natural peanut butter and coconut cream.  Just too bad I have to fry on the stovetop and not get a deep fryer..  So, what's that a week of pizza nights, and at least a week of tacos and chicken?

Also, I'm getting church food pantry food.  Some is neat.  It'll be plenty of pasta and tomato sauce, beans and rice.  Probably grits, as well.  Maybe some fruit.  Who knows.  Meat.  Like I've said recently, I'll have my rolling duffel bag.

Of course, there are still things at home that are probably many not spoiled.

So, look at it, this way.

"Count your blessings."

I'm getting out of being hospitalized.

Emma Kok

Do you know many young people who sing as good as she sings, in this video?

June > July > August > September

June > I bought nice things for my bed and the chair.

July > start figure skating

--- I can't buy a hamster, not enough money to make it comfortable and space. ---

I guess in August I can buy a TV to watch the Olympics which start near the end of July.

September > adult dance classes

I have 2 gym passes.

Fed

Well, I had my bowl of mostly bean soup, black beans, got lots of protein and over twice as much fiber. It has a good amount of barley, as well.

Strange Healing? Not Really

It's strange that, in a matter of a few days eating heavy bean soup and a few days before eating another bean soup, my foot that made me come to be hospitalized for 1/2 year has healed.

Up

I got up and wasn't prone to falling back asleep.

"Sad to Say"

I'm taking another nap, I think.  I don't want another dream where a boar that turns into a killed disgusting pink pig tries to have *** with me, well, ambush me.

Apple :)

I just had an apple and feel good.

Gardening - I Wonder

I find it strange I don't have "a burning desire" to plant 1 certain food in my apartment.

Maybe, I could plant tomatos for pizza.  I chose sweet seeds, Datterini tomatos.

I guess I can also grow garlic to sprinkle on the crust/bread and probably cheese.

Maybe, the green peppers, too, and chili peppers.

I'm growing a pizza!

Unfortunately

I'm going to take a nap.

I Hope

I really hope I can save money this month, some.

So Happy Today

My blood sugar has been like 250, but this morning it was like 176!

So, I was a little disappointed I bought some activity books to get me through the long weekend before I go home from the nursing home, and I assumed I wouldn't buy much else.  I didn't like it that much, but what I did made me feel better and I plan to do more of some.  I finished 2.  Anyway, it got me to thinking what do I really need? for some reason.  I realized, I do have the internet, but what I really want and need is a place just to lie down or sit down more comfortably.  So, I ordered me a king sized comforter for my twin size bed, 8 pillows and 8 pillowcases, and a lazy chair which I may be able to sit sorta sideways in!  I slept well, "on that note."

I wanted more extra money, but I need a good night's sleep, and that's clear.  Maybe, next I will get ice skates in July.  I also wanted a TV with the Olympics on, but maybe August I will get a TV.  I have to pay to use the rink but here probably can bring my own snacks.

Update

New Page on Side of Blog

Secondary Blog

New Page

Anti-Racism

I will put it on the side of my blog when it works again.

I'm done with Sun In, it's a nice highlight and I'm not using purple mask.  Interesting?

Oil, Egg, Honey, Milk!

No lemon needed.

It must actually suck to be a Generation Z kid.  I wonder if they're jealous of older generations.

I cleaned my ears and they bled at the end, again, both the last cleaner or 2.

Flickr

New Album - Link

High School

Salmen

After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet
Music Lessons

Year 1
1- French I
2- Talented Music I
3- Career Orientation | Civics
4- English II
5- Geometry
6- JROTC I
7- World Geography

Pope John Paul II Catholic High School

After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet
Music Lessons

Year 2
1- French II
2- Art I
3- English III
4- Algebra II
5- History
6- Health | PE
7- Biology I

Year 3
1- French III
2- Art II
3- English IV
4- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
5- History
6- Chemistry I
7- Biology II

Year 4
1- French IV
2- Art III
3- English V
4- Calculus
5- Physics
6- Chemistry II
7-

College - Dance/Ballet + Minor in Violin

Well, I'm good at putting puzzles together, now.

If all the good things simmer over as obvious, let's do it to the people themselves if they ruin everything, instead, since the first thing I said affects good people badly.

If I was an English baby, my eyes would teeple over to brown, as well.

So, Hollywood is more fair racially, and the arts aren't and haven't been for a long time.  Meaning, some are better some are not, but if you're better and your race is technically wrong people will crumble before your eyes and not accept you.  The arts are important, big, and classical culture.  Too bad we used it for the wrong reasons, too excited over Late Generation X | Early Generation Y.