Do you think there are any good parents with good kids? Maybe, they are thin potpourri parents.
Sunday, June 16, 2024
Early Baby Boomers born around 1950 and the early 1950s won't let me do it on my own and come back and be happy like everyone else my age range. Maybe, they aren't perfect and are even lazy with "children," when it comes to personally. I didn't need my parents that much, but I didn't get to go to daycare or stay in preschool all day.
Saturday, June 15, 2024
Do you know what the people monitoring me in private have been doing for a long time? if I do something they personally dislike, they pick on me for not knowing everything and threaten me. Like, say I get mad and say it, they might come back later for a long time and keep ruining things for me and doing whatever I don't like again.
I wish I could just feel good, it's my foot that's still haunting me. Since the nursing home, it's hard to eat. I should get EveryPlate. Maybe, it will fit in July.
Like, people annoy me and I have nothing "to go back to" or "fall back on."
I'm suffering with these unnecessary messages from people manipulating me life following me in private. No one really talks to me. I'm not inclined to fall asleep yet.
Does anyone think humans are more adept to eating vegetation than meat? I mean if you think about being a primate? I wonder if that's why you can get sick of eating meat all the time so eat it less often, like if too much pizza with eating lots of that bread and lumps of the same cheese and salt in the sauce, grease form the meat.
Friday, June 14, 2024
Today
I bought an onion, a tomato, and some celery, to make vegetable broth. I won't use a lot for one bowl. At home, I already have carrots, potatos...
Today
I have my 3rd load of laundry to fold, pretty much.
I'm making my cold water and ordered the cheapest ice tray on Amazon, which I think is flexible. It comes tomorrow, unless there's another glitch, with paying using a bank account.
I bought a pitcher to pour water with today. I have one to purify water in my refrigerator, and I pour it in this one.
So, I am having a hard time running low on money counting money that bounces out, in, and out of my account, for bills. I have 2 checking accounts and 2 banks, though. I just have a lot less next month. Anyway, using my new knowledge of food, it gets easier to eat cheaper, and I have food pantries to go to. I am even happy with the gym and being comfortable at home, to some degree. I do want to spend around $100 for 8 king sized pillows and pillow cases in July. I'll have a higher electric bill and can't skip my bankruptcy payment, which is easy since I'm home. I might have over $800 next month. I'll be smarter, too, about what I need and hope to learn more, like about the meat I'm thinking now. I have an idea for the vegetables maybe.
Thursday, June 13, 2024
I cancelled the book since I already have enough to make me happy, but I kept the like $5+ reading lamp that changes amounts of light and clip son. I kept the bubble bath. That way I will be more comfortable and not be stressed out to read the books for Toy Story yet. I don't think I will get the pillows and pillowcases until July, though. I could get some, but I still don't think so. I'm more worked over food --- and saving. I have maybe over $200 total now. I didn't buy anything too silly.
Soup to Sip
That's it, tomorrow I'm taking the bus to the grocery store with a rolling bag and getting vegetables for vegetable broth to sip.
The Popularity: My Younger Brother and Younger Girl Cousin
My Younger Brother
My dad put him up as deserving something as though I was lumped into him and his younger sister Barb, when we are nothing alike.
So, he is something to, say, "scoop up after," socially..
My Younger Girl Cousin
She is definitely a worldwide phenomenon. People like to give her attention or feelings that were going to go to me, for pleasure, for example. So, you'll run into her in high places, that's for sure, for me at least.
No Such Thing as a Need for Social Segregation ("Ghey")
I don't think other races just automatically rub off in a bad way more than anything else bad that happens in some similar way that means something related.
So, there's no reason to be racist. Whites feel good being the only white one, for a time, and usually have people they know to talk to. Sure, some whites talk to non-whites to have even more people to talk to.
What I Wish I Did in High School, Now
Year 1
1- Dance Team
2- English II
3- Geometry
4- Career Orientation | Civics
5- Biology I
6- PE I
7- Talented Theater
Year 2
1- Dance Team
2- English III
3- Algebra II
4- World History
5- Chemistry I
6- PE II | Health
7- Talented Theater
Year 3
1- Dance Team
2- English IV
3- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
4- American History
5- Physics
6- Free Enterprise |
7- Talented Theater
Wednesday, June 12, 2024
So Good to Be Solo
I might just stay home and finish off my laundry or half of it, which is important. See, I didn't get one of my bank cards, 2 cards from this bank.
Winding Down
I'm winding down, so I can take my pills and vitamins comfortably. I have my green tea, to calm me.
Woke Up, for Now
I may have gone to bed, like, 4 hours ago. I'm still tired and would go back to bed, but I'm too hungry and so am having breakfast, which these days is a poached egg with salt and pepper and green tea and 1/2 an orange, along with my vitamins and pills.
I might wait a little to go to bed or go soon. I'm pretty worked from my exercise class today and need to stay home and rest, probably. I also need to do laundry, maybe later or after my next nap.
Tuesday, June 11, 2024
I feel happier when people make fun of me because I know all my fun work to be healthy and save up ^riches^ means I will go places and not stay in this evil deevil apartment and area.... I need to have fun looking into this for fun and find out how to find out how to live. Florida is hot, and many people are Up North culture.
Monday, June 10, 2024
Sunday, June 9, 2024
Cough drops can save your life...?
Taking Ricola which has whatever in it but not like 50 a day is good and I didn't get weak and dependent on it. The herbs made me cough less overall and I still took them. So, I wouldn't throw up from coughing every time the food I had to eat bubbled up and down the tube ticking it for some reason.
My mom died from medication making her throw up everything almost. The medication did that to me, too.
film|boards Post by Me Now
The Kind of Family I'm From and Why It Seems So "Well to Do"
My family didn't really *trash the traditions*. They didn't force me to go ahead and mix the spaghetti and the sauce instead of eating it with the spaghetti as much plain as possible. They didn't ditch dinner. It wasn't "PIZZA!?"
We didn't have frozen vegetables etc. That's easy enough, I could have done it.
We did have traditional food that was not exactly Asian dining. I improved it on my own by chopping the meat ahead of time and squeezing lemon (or lime I will start soon too) and sprinkling salt and pepper on it, as well ... but the pieces are already cut.
We had good vegetables, like good broccoli with lots of spice, among other things, cooked vegetables to include lima beans, peas, cauliflower, lots of corn, etc. We also had fresh carrots and cucumbers, the cucumbers being a favorite of my younger brother, every night for supper. Of course, it would be hard to get into a routine to bring to school, but some people do or manage.
We had bread often, Italian bread, like baguettes? I liked lots of thick pieces. I had done gymnastics, so this was good. I didn't eat a lot of candy, ever, especially before age 5. I was very hungry. We didn't always eat quite the same or as much.
There were times, long times we ate very differently I could go into.
We had the meats: chicken often lemon pepper rotisserie, beef/steak, pork, ham, and for Thanksgiving turkey. Sometimes, fish, a newer thing, maybe because of the bones.
We had cereal for breakfast and maybe other things, orange juice since I used to be allergic to milk but had it in my cereal, though it just made me throw up. I've had other things for breakfast. Oh yea, pop tarts, sometimes waffles Egos.
We had fruits kinda like a treat but more to be healthy that it was okay it was tasty you know? No added sugar, but that would be a new dessert.
We had dessert, just not candy all day since I didn't when I was little I guess. Sometimes, we made special things, like most people's parents have them do. People at school in public high school made such a big deal I always made store bought cookie mix cookies, chocolate chip.
We had the drinks: sodas like Pepsi or Coke, Sprite, Root Beer, and Orange Soda. Water with ice we had to make at first for awhile. Sometimes, I did it, but it wasn't a big deal and they ignored it. I was naturally clean, though. We sometimes had other things like the Hawaiian Punch I liked with cheese sticks, Yoohoo!, and for lunch Capri Sun which used to be sweet and good frozen from breakfast.
We ate out, too, and it was very social in a way to sit there and feel it.
from Massachusetts
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCW-ReiBtefsieCTy0ghm22Q
My dad and I bought the Halloween one online in 2007 in Altamonte Springs, Orlando, Florida.
Saturday, June 8, 2024
My mom was the florist at Albertson's in Saint Augustine, Florida, but she didn't have to get certified.
I want to sell at a place, like that. The class, you can open your own shop, but that's the reason, that and to work like most people, as opposed to selling jewelry. I also considered makeup in a store.
Friday, June 7, 2024
I have nightmares every night, horrible.
So, Andre Rieu is guarding Ashley my younger girl cousin and Michael my younger brother.
My dad left them in death. So did my mom who watched over. They were too young to die. Don't commit suicide, live to be 100+ in comfortable health..
It's too sweet, the interaction I felt. Lots of people would celebrate, but it's a private ordeal. I think Ashley the frisky puppy came out and wagged her tail and Andre Rieu pulled her back in with Michael.
I couldn't believe I bothered my younger brother with a picture of Andre Rieu and now he's mad.
I can't believe he's thinking he can go against him for staying with Ashley and leaving us.
I already figured out he was gonna do this if the people kept attacking him for attacking Andre Rieu.
Well, I feel better, I threw up that nasty tasteless overnight oats for whatever reason and the spaghetti and meatballs. I ate too much and produced mucus bubbles and lay down and I gag easily still. I made it out and to the toilet. I still have to clean some of it. :( I dunno if I should lay down and sleep now. I don't have to go anywhere. I can go through the library activity book to see what I want to do this summer.
My idea for lunch next time, which this time I spaghetti and meatballs or whatever. Beans and rice are like a nutritional power up revitalizing renovating healing health snack. Well, my next idea for lunch I mean is maybe Triscuits, cold cut deli meats, and cheese from blocks chopped up. I loved eating this in college. How could I have known from experience?
I might have like $200 something left, maybe $220 when all is said and done. I don't want to spend it on anything, though. I wonder how much money I'll have next month. I should do my shopping cart for July, Instacart+, big.
I'm getting a $75 TV, 24 inches I think, from Wal-Mart, and it comes with the Olympics's channel. July I guess. I can put it on my L desk. I have art and music stuff I can move to my shelf there. I can put my stuffed animals there, too. Right now, they are on my shelf and used to be the only thing on it.
Thursday, June 6, 2024
Well, I unpacked the pots and pans with lids and did 2 jars of overnight oats. It'll be ready after midnight some time, like 2 AM. I'd like to do all 4. I wonder what I should have for supper, think I'll have a chicken breast and a fresh carrot for now and squeeze some lemon and sprinkle salt and pepper. I also have limes, which was gonna be for squeezing on my meat. I could squeeze it in plain water. I was gonna get a soda stream.
Wednesday, June 5, 2024
The healthcare field seems to feel it is different from others and also "special." Why? Because they will never tell you the whole truth in words. They just, instead, look forlornly about prescribing medicines that are more "optional." They won't tell you like how important it is not to skip one dose of insulin because *you might just skip* regularly. For instance, I told them I needed my insulin and pills when I go home, and I didn't get told anything like that. When a nurse was out, not often, they never said anything, neither, like it was cute to be silent and seemed not to want me to feel okay about answering. When you see a free dietitian, for a maybe either brief meet or maybe a separate visit possibly though, they won't tell you how to eat your sugars and assume everyone is telling you not to eat any at all, for best possible results, like this is the end for you.
I took out the trash, then paid rent. I just have to go through and throw out old mail and some other things, do my laundry > throw out some stuff, wash clothes, wash bedding. I'm good to go!
Extra expenses were the canned soup in the nursing home for $36 and the arts and crafts for $36 to improve my mind. I almost got more. I spent more I guess on healthy groceries? Some things are a little more expensive, like cocoa powder which will last a long time. I got fresh jars, too. The old ones sat for 1/2 year and must have a stench.
Tuesday, June 4, 2024
Plan/Agenda
1. Order DoorDash this afternoon.
2. Order Instacart+.
3. Tomorrow, go to church food pantry.
4. Make sure to sort out my finances.
Also, I need to order pots and pans, baking sheets, and a spatula.
"Always Look on the Bright Side of Life!"
I do like all these colors for different things. This is a Flapper costume. Imagine being from Florida and going from pink to black.
Why not say this about me being from Florida and moving to New Orleans rather than all this about my blood isn't from the European South, in the US?
Monday, June 3, 2024
I might get the cheapest MP3 player on Amazon.com that has internet, so I can load my songs on there without risking my cheap laptop being incompatible. Expensive computers are compatible with little dinky gadgets. The MP3 player with internet I'm getting is $41.27.
Why????
So, when I jog and especially walk I will go longer listening to music. I need to get back in shape. In Orlando, it wasn't even really enough to jog 1/2 hour most days and walk 2 hours or more in a day. I would walk 2 hours at one time often, it seemed, and of course I was often or usually wanting to listen to music.
Crystal
Link
Crystal's Employment Enjoyment
Andre referred Crystal to work at "the ice den" as suggested by Joanna, a lady who flirts with Andre.
There she was selling hot dogs.
She had been interested in figure skating herself and went there alone after work and skated every day that week.
She came home with 2 days off Sunday and Monday. She shook her snow globe fervently.
Sunday, June 2, 2024
Good survival health food is soup made of a lot of beans. You can add vegetable stock. If you have, you can throw in vegetables to strengthen/enhance the flavor, maybe chop them up small or take them out when done soaking in the hot stock. Church food pantries give out beans and rice to just anyone, throw it in the cellar.
Before You Die
What's with the thinking that you have to move to Florida for a certain kind of dreamy and contemporary times life?
Grocery Review
I forgot 1 thing I got.
$186
1- ingredients of 6 cheese pizzas
2- ingredients of tacos with most ground meat packed
3- 2 large packs of chicken thighs (more than whole chickens) w/peanut butter and coconut cream
4- lots of angel hair spaghetti and meatballs
5- jalapeno cream cheese poppers
6- macaroni and tuna fish
7- egg salad
Church Food Pantries (w/Bus Pass)
Game Plan
I bought a "friendship bracelet maker" to pass the time, so the last steps before moving home are a better one.
Groceries
I didn't think I could get approximately a month's worth of food and not just backup canned food all in one Instacart+ order.
June Food $180
Dinner-Like
2. Largest Taco Meat Pack to Freeze
3. More Chicken Than 2 Chickens (w/Peanut Butter and Coconut)
4. Lots of Angel Hair Spaghetti and Frozen Meatballs With the Sauce and Parmesan
Lunch-Like
1. Egg Salad
2. Macaroni and Tuna
3. 2 Packs of Hot Dogs and Buns
Bees
I just realized helicopters look like bee's and buzz like them, too. Birds look like planes, I just realized.
Did you know...
...My blood sugar stayed well below 200 and once 200 tested 4x a day when I felt so good about buying all the pillows and the lazy chair? 8 king pillows and a king comforter. I slept well that night. It was like 170 or 180. That's a big difference than usual and all day. I did eat well, too, in a way.
Stocking Up
I think I'm getting enough food for the month for like $180.
- ingredients to make 6 pizzas
- largest amount of taco meat
- more chicken than a whole chicken
- lots of angel hair spaghetti
Yay
At least, I'm going home, Tuesday! I can't wait! I'm getting 8 King size pillows for my bed and a King size comforter, and a lazy chair.
Feeling Blank
Are you used to socializing at school? I'm sure you still have your parents and other family. I don't.
I feel a bad reaction right now, I finished a painting in less than 1 day, and I posted it on film|boards and Facebook, and I have a feeling of bad interception, like I can't walk up to a stranger and have them turn a glance, like a stone statue. I can't depend on people cuz they don't care about me if I'm not superwoman form my past yet.
Saturday, June 1, 2024
"I'm so happy!"
I'm so happy I reduced my budget by basically subtracting breakfast foods etc. that seems to last about a month and from almost $200 to maybe under $150. It's sandwiches for lunch of mainly vegetables, a tomato wrap, and also cheese, red wine vinegar, and oil, like Subway. There can be like 6 pizzas. Tacos, the largest size of meat. And more chicken thighs than a whole chicken's worth with it's natural peanut butter and coconut cream. Just too bad I have to fry on the stovetop and not get a deep fryer.. So, what's that a week of pizza nights, and at least a week of tacos and chicken?
Also, I'm getting church food pantry food. Some is neat. It'll be plenty of pasta and tomato sauce, beans and rice. Probably grits, as well. Maybe some fruit. Who knows. Meat. Like I've said recently, I'll have my rolling duffel bag.
Of course, there are still things at home that are probably many not spoiled.
June > July > August > September
June > I bought nice things for my bed and the chair.
July > start figure skating
--- I can't buy a hamster, not enough money to make it comfortable and space. ---
I guess in August I can buy a TV to watch the Olympics which start near the end of July.
September > adult dance classes
I have 2 gym passes.
Fed
Well, I had my bowl of mostly bean soup, black beans, got lots of protein and over twice as much fiber. It has a good amount of barley, as well.
Strange Healing? Not Really
It's strange that, in a matter of a few days eating heavy bean soup and a few days before eating another bean soup, my foot that made me come to be hospitalized for 1/2 year has healed.
"Sad to Say"
I'm taking another nap, I think. I don't want another dream where a boar that turns into a killed disgusting pink pig tries to have *** with me, well, ambush me.
Gardening - I Wonder
I find it strange I don't have "a burning desire" to plant 1 certain food in my apartment.
Maybe, I could plant tomatos for pizza. I chose sweet seeds, Datterini tomatos.
I guess I can also grow garlic to sprinkle on the crust/bread and probably cheese.
Maybe, the green peppers, too, and chili peppers.
I'm growing a pizza!
So Happy Today
My blood sugar has been like 250, but this morning it was like 176!
So, I was a little disappointed I bought some activity books to get me through the long weekend before I go home from the nursing home, and I assumed I wouldn't buy much else. I didn't like it that much, but what I did made me feel better and I plan to do more of some. I finished 2. Anyway, it got me to thinking what do I really need? for some reason. I realized, I do have the internet, but what I really want and need is a place just to lie down or sit down more comfortably. So, I ordered me a king sized comforter for my twin size bed, 8 pillows and 8 pillowcases, and a lazy chair which I may be able to sit sorta sideways in! I slept well, "on that note."
I wanted more extra money, but I need a good night's sleep, and that's clear. Maybe, next I will get ice skates in July. I also wanted a TV with the Olympics on, but maybe August I will get a TV. I have to pay to use the rink but here probably can bring my own snacks.
Friday, May 31, 2024
High School
Salmen
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet
Music Lessons
Year 1
1- French I
2- Talented Music I
3- Career Orientation | Civics
4- English II
5- Geometry
6- JROTC I
7- World Geography
Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet
Music Lessons
Year 2
1- French II
2- Art I
3- English III
4- Algebra II
5- History
6- Health | PE
7- Biology I
Year 3
1- French III
2- Art II
3- English IV
4- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
5- History
6- Chemistry I
7- Biology II
Year 4
1- French IV
2- Art III
3- English V
4- Calculus
5- Physics
6- Chemistry II
7-
College - Dance/Ballet + Minor in Violin
So, Hollywood is more fair racially, and the arts aren't and haven't been for a long time. Meaning, some are better some are not, but if you're better and your race is technically wrong people will crumble before your eyes and not accept you. The arts are important, big, and classical culture. Too bad we used it for the wrong reasons, too excited over Late Generation X | Early Generation Y.
I found the arts today seemed universally flawed, but then I came back only to feel corrected but not as impressed still as I should be with what I get.
It's about the elite performing artist.
Maybe, I should really look forward to being an actor one day. Why do so many get hopeless? They can even continue to be in more and more movies and have plenty to do, give to charity, travel.
Thursday, May 30, 2024
Race
My theory is Whites tolerate the existence of Asians more other than not wanting to be them, in short, is that they themselves already are White. ...And, so, seeing an Asian, they are still in presence of Whiteness and not really "alone..." They are not told to just be more Asian, like mixed White/Asians!
High School
If I Went Back
Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Delta Festival Ballet
Year 1
1- English I
2- Geometry
3- History
4- Physical Science
5- Religion I
6- Health | PE I
7- Art I
Year 2
1- English II
2- Algebra II
3- History
4- Biology I
5- Religion II
6- PE II
7- Art II
Year 3
1- English III
2- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
3- History
4- Chemistry I
5- Religion III
6- Art III
7- French I
Year 4
1- English IV
2- Calculus
3- Religion IV
4- Art IV
5- French II
6- Spanish I
7-
College - Tulane - Dance/Ballet
"COS" Child-Onset Schizophrenia
I wonder if they like to play violent video games, since they are sortra "suicidal."
Schizophrenia
The internet says it's rare in young children, like under 12.
I read a book that said babies with too much white bread go cross eyed in a honeymoon period with the mom. It was in the library at a college, Baldwin-Wallace, Up North in Berea, Ohio.
So, My Future and Life and the Very Near Future and Present
I thought I'd get the ice skating down, it's not too late, instead of shooting for Dance/Ballet at Tulane. I dunno, it seems good, fun, and maybe special. It might even help.
I've never vacation'd much. I'd rather skate than sell my book soon for money sooner. I might spend all my money skating. I dunno if there's food there or how expensive or cheap it is.
I wanna work on helping other people so I'm not alone in my experiences like life is unfair and no one cares about me. I've achieved a lot of individual abilities but not made money from them.
The groceries look good for 4 days with leftovers. I might walk and get Chinese or to McDonald's or get a pizza at Pizza Hut or from Dominos's or something. I will probably eat out tomorrow with DoorDash here in the nursing home, and it's only May 30th. I might do it once each day here left, that's 4 days and then when I get back home. I wonder if that's $100. I wanted to get canned food etc., but I want to save the money and get food from church and do have some stuff.
Wednesday, May 29, 2024
I guess I'll get by...
...by staying up tonight and in the early AM, taking walks up late indoors, and eating snacks, and that way I won't be doing nothing trying to sleep at any time.
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