Wednesday, May 22, 2024

Dance

The community college might cost money.

I found another school with professionally inviting classes of 2 levels for "modern" dance.  I could use it to get in a company I find someday and be ready to perform.  It's beginning/intermediate and intermediate/advanced, 2 days and 3 days mornings.  There's 1 open class 1 evening.  I also go to the gym.  So, cool!  I wonder if I can find an American Ninja Warrior type gym, too, and I'm already a member of Planet Fitness, Black Card, and 1 other gym.

Continuation

I can still dance after that, of course.  If I wanted to do violin at Loyola and it's better, I could do dance team or study ballet at Tulane and do gymnastics club at Tulane.

Best Opportunity to Dance

the AA in Dance at the community college

I just need to mail in my transcripts in June, may cost around $100..

I guess I'll start in the Fall.  Apparently, it does not require auditions.  I think it has "Dance" and ballet.  I hope they don't whip through the ballet like trash comparably, not meaning I'm ridiculing the college or funning the students, I just mean what it is compared to a ballet company.

Shopping

Women's Clothes > eBay

Tops, for now!

What I'm Trying

I'm trying to get into dance classes with the kids.

What I Wish I Did

Age 9, 10, 11 - Saint Augustine, FL > Spanish Folk Dancing

Slidell, LA
7th & 8th Grade - Galloway's > Dance "Combo" Class - Jazz, Tap, & Lyrical
High School - Galloway's > Competition Team

They get the exclusive costumes.

Fun

Floristry

Question

Why are arts so casual and run by old loonies?

Eureka!

You know what pisses me off?  People concentrating they can't believe no one made better social media, as the answer to our problems.

Idea

What if I wear dance clothes, all the time?

Recreation

Buying clothes?

New Plan

Just go to the gyms and pay for food.

Something will look attractive, later.

A Little "Annoying," Don't You All Think?

Whoever you are, you wish you were someone like Andre Rieu, but he's himself.

You want to prove you'd do it differently.

I swear, he is lonely at some sort of top but does not really have too much.  That's why he doesn't show off.  You say you're him all the time but a younger version and are along for the ride to constantly just say he has that.  I already told you some of what I thought and you know how I feel about the people experimenting on me before.

It's all about...

....hogging art and music, and dancing and success at entertainment if possible.

I present myself.

...and I am swallowed up.

What's the point in life, people ask me?

People always won't admit they are jealous of my talent, but they are probably rich kids from Up North who are good at details pressuring me to do it, too.

Clothes Shopping

I need to start doing it more, but even eBay can be a little expensive.  I like never do it.

Do's & Don't's

I can't find a quality dance experience.

I'm a little wary of owning a hamster on a budget.

I guess I'll take figure skating.

Ballet

School 1 - Adult Ballet
Monday - 7:50-8:45 P.M. - 50 Minutes
Tuesday - 7:50-8:45 P.M. - 50 Minutes
Thursday - 7:35-8:30 P.M. - 50 Minutes

School 2 - Adult Ballet
Friday - 6:00-7:30 P.M. - 1 1/2 Hours

School 3 - Adult Dance
Wednesday - 7:00-8:00 P.M. - 1 Hour - Advanced Beginning / Intermediate Adult Jazz

Me Singing Now

Tuesday, May 21, 2024

Ballet

I think I will just take adult ballet at a ballet school.  Once a week for 1 1/2 hours.  Friday evenings.

Spunky Brats Full of Flesh of Life

Who "feeds" these little brats who thrive in such a world that German can reign supreme outside of "Nazis?"

Pet

If I do move to a 1 bedroom apartment, even if it's in the same apartment complex, should I get a ferret?  I might just turn the room into a dance studio, and the pet can go in the living area, or 2nd bedroom if I have extra money for some reason.  I want an albino ferret.

Of Course

I'm getting gymnastics equipment, the long float-y thing to tumble on and for now at least a single bar.

Cough Drops

I just spent $40 on 12 packs of 19 cough drops, Ricola sugar free.  The pills make me cough after I eat and sometimes almost throw up or throw up.

Dance

I think I'm gonna go to a dance school and take all like 10 classes I can that are allowed for adults.

If it gets cancelled when they put up the new schedule after this month and I can't find a place, I'll just do the Dance AA.

Here's an idea.

Why don't you have a concerto series over a series of days of weeks?

Crap Cat?

My next painting I'm gonna be more careful by chosing the background first and then drawing the cat in it.

Question for Musicians's Sanity

So, what orchestra gives solos?  You have to record.

French Major

First Year French I
First Year French II
Second Year French II
Second Year French III
Advanced Composition/Grammar
Advanced Conversation/Phoenetics
Analysis of French Texts
Intro to French Lit I
Intro to French Lit 2
Culture & Civ 1
Culture & Civ 2

Dance by Loyola

Best to wait and see.  Tulane has gymnastics club.

Aha!

I might be able to dance in the community at Loyola.  Without being on Dance Team or the rather secret Loyola dancing etc.  That sounds best, community dance.  I can ride my bike, possibly.  I just need to get used to using the lock.  At the Freiburger Barockorchester, they bike a long time?

New Idea - History Major

Requirements:

1. Global History 2

2. US History 1

3. US History 2

4. Historical Methods Lab

5. Historiography


Choices:

1. US History - The American Character

2. European History - Modern Europe 1815-1914

3. Non-US/European History - Historical Geography

4. Non-US/European History - War in the Modern World

5. History Elective - Modern Europe 1914-1945

6. History Elective - Modern Europe 1945-Present

7. History Elective - US: WWII to Present

I want to study History in college.

Requirements:

1. Global History 2
2. US History 1
3. US History 2
4. Historical Methods Lab
5. Historiography

Choices:

1. US History - History of New Orleans
2. European History - Empires in Modern Pacific
3. Non-US/European History - Race & Gender in the Atlantic
4. Non-US/European History - Queer History & Culture
5. History Elective - War in the Modern World
6. History Elective - Saints & Demons in Medieval Europe
7. History Elective - Witchcraft & Magic in Europe

Monday, May 20, 2024

Something Very Joking

I remember this, and it entertains me and is pertinent and relevant to my life.  Petra Mullejans is an attractive violinist with an attractive daughter, whose dad leads the orchestra too.  She finds out about my younger brother, of course.  So, she understands he's half Asian but was more attractive than me, in some ways okay.  I know she is supposed to want her mom etc., but when reality sets in about her associations she says, "I want Michael."  Her parents looked upset she seemed not to beat me.

Then, Petra Mullejans, the violinist lady/mom, is strict on me about even my younger girl cousin Ashley, who is a little younger than her daughter, who is even more younger but not much than my younger brother.  Now, I am always good, but if Ashley has a problem, it's brought on me.

I'm sorry this is not politics in the news, I'm not in rage but I'm serious I'm right.

NEW IDEA!

Tri-C @ Cleveland > AA Violin Performance & Dance

Loyola University New Orleans > BM Violin Performance & Ballet @ Tulane & Gymnastics Club Team @ Tulane



:D

Practice

I want plenty of time to practice.  Finishing my AA first, will help.  I felt silly doing all my time for nothing.

I think I found a dance club sport.

May as well?

https://loyno.campuslabs.com/engage/organization/flawlessgoldenwolves


I don't want to do the secret dance program in Loyola, too modern.

I went to dance team tryouts before here.  Also, there may be ballet off campus somewhere.  I can take classes at Tulane, too, though.  So, maybe I should just do that.  I thought it'd take time to change and stuff.  Which one?

New Idea

Tri-C (Cleveland) AA - Violin Performance

Loyola - BM - Violin Performance


The sports meets are too much time.

... ?

New Idea

Tri-C - AA - Violin Performance

Loyola - BM - Violin Performance
Cross Country & Track

... ?

Over?

I only need 1 degree.

Also

They have events and clubs at college.  Teachers go to the theater.  Music.

AA Music

I guess first I'll get an AA easy at Tri-C.

If I don't have to do more General Studies will probably do a BM in 2 years.

Lessons

I want violin lessons, maybe even get an AA in Music here, at Tri-C.

BA

I know Loyola.  Bums get BMs there, so I wanted to show I was something.

New Idea

Loyola

Dance Team

Broadway Dorm

Bachelor of Arts - Music

Honors


A Bachelor of Arts maybe because I'll be less likely to be kicked out than if I were in a Bachelor of Music and to take more Honors / General Studies courses at advanced.


Of, violin of course, and they do have a pedagogy course I think and it's similar to majoring some.

Yea

I checked it out, and I really want to go to Wheaton in Illinois... the dance team.

Wheaton

Illinois, Up North..

Chosing a College

I don't know if the pedagogy majors are that different, but those are good ones as BMs.  If I do string pedagogy, I might do all strings and don't really care much about it..

So, Wheaton?  The one with the cheerleading club!

Well

I'm too late to try out for Dance Team there, so I will try for both colleges, in a year anyway, see which one I can dance at..

More

I found a college with a Bachelor of Music in String Pedagogy and a Dance Team.  University of New Mexico.  I think I will try to go there.

Good Idea

This music degree is a good idea for graduate school for Music Education.

Cheerleading Club

So, it's probably got more dancing.  You don't have to have prior experience..

New Idea

I want to try to go to a campus and major in Music Pedagogy, on violin.  I found one.  It's a Bachelor of Music!

Concentration

of course

Health Promotion and Public Health

the only one like it for the BS..

Question

I used to be able to sing The Phantom of the Opera like when I was 15, 16, 17.. why am I a dork?  Where did everyone else go?

I think I'm just gonna do this for now.

https://www.liberty.edu/online/education/bachelors/bed/english-as-a-second-language/

I don't want just the certification for online and abroad.  I'm going through the whole Bachelor of Education in Teaching English as a Second Language, for Pre-K - 12.

Oh, that's Liberty University.  I also want to go to Franklin for Exercise Science, it's in Ohio.

https://www.franklin.edu/degrees/bachelors/exercise-science


Online:

Bachelor of Education - Teaching English as a Second Language (Pre-K - 12th) - Liberty U (Virginia)

Bachelor of Science - Exercise Science - Franklin U (Ohio)

Where should I teach EFL?

England?  Nah, even though I'm teaching as American?  Who wants to learn American?  Europe?

$479.50

TEFL.org

1-2 weeks 4 hours a day?

In June?

My Next Goal

I do have a savings for a pet, but I am gonna send my transcripts to Liberty University, which costs money, and "apply for FAFSA."  I'm gonna forget about worrying about a ferret or pets.  I'm gonna cook my food.  I'll see what my health requires, I may dance and have 2 gym memberships, one being a Black Card for Planet Fitness, its higher/highest membership.  We'll see how this goes.  I'll do just like 2 courses at a time or 1 if it's a short period of time, at least for now, and see if I get smarter or better, but this is an easy major for me, like Music / Music Education was.

Andre Rieu

Andre Rieu, I figured out part of you.

You had your son Pierre because in Orlando I remember the best was a bus driver who was probably mixed with a little Black and some Middle Eastern etc.  You wanted to see if they were interested in having s** or being loved.

(You also gave up on yourself and sharing your dreams with anyone, like you were a loner who wanted to open up to people strictly about it being good and White successfully, where I kinda take 2nd place and am worrying in feeling, where people hang reminders of death around me sometimes or break out in terror of how bad they make it for me.  I didn't used to live this way, and neither are others made to by others.)

Anyway, it did seem tacky, but you got people to cooperate and got popular like my dad marrying someone from a better heritage.  Middle Eastern is a highly coveted race, and I'll not near Germany's sentiment on that if it exists in the negative or overbearing to Whites not considered German in heritage.

So, you got popular by advertising your son Pierre.

Apparently, albinos aren't all that hard to find?

Link

$200

I want this ferret baby!

Link

$200

I want this.

Link

New Idea

BEd TESL

BS TESL


I guess the Masters is like with music when you go back and do Historical Performance like it's supposed to be all that enjoyable.

Degrees to Get

BEd TESL

BS TESL

MEd TESOL

MS TESOL

More

I should also do a Masters in TESOL for teaching abroad.

Liberty University

Liberty University is an online college, as well as an on campus college.  Of course, I'm going online.

I'm declaring 2 degrees.

Liberty University

BEd TESL
BS TESL

The BEd TESL is for Pre-K - 12th grade!

I will take a long time to finish, but it looks like fun ... and a lot of classes including General Studies might overall overlap, except there's plenty of Education courses.

I'm almost perfected at grammar, as a student.  I remember every little thing that's important, usually, not everything though.  It's very easy.  I know a lot of catch phrases or whatever etc.

It will be a nice life going from place to place in any country, like a Maria (von Trapp.)

Dance

I wonder if I shouldn't dance and just eat.  True, when I get in shape I can dance.

I'll be enjoying myself for once.

Facebook

Link

Sunday, May 19, 2024

Meeting Me?

It's not that I was the amazing product back in the day, like 2005, but it was what I was up to and things we all did.  I was another little princess girl, not a real princess meaning.

Nails Cut

Happy Birthday to Me!

I cut my fingernails earlier today and my toenails just now after my shower!

It's not as easy/fun in the nursing home, but I do it often at home..

Blonde Hair .. Blue Eyes!

I wonder if I tried really hard just to have blue eyes, and then expected my hair to get lighter as it was already brown, born black with a brown tint.  Many fair white blondes are born with black hair?  Many aren't?  Also, my skin was flushed.  It seems all the attention went to my younger brother with the fair tanned skin.. A lotta people popular like that.

Music Teachers

I thought of why music teachers think they're so cool.  They don't look like silly performers with a lack of talent.  Their talent is being s**y for children etc.

They're the way of the future.  They stand for children and failure of adults as musical performers ever.

Were you ever "ready?"

Maybe not as pretty as a child or whenever, but to say you were willing to do what you should to look cute as a child or whatever?

My theory is that people born around 1961 - 1970s are peeved at kids who aren't as attractive as Baby Boomers.  Most people are just as good as each other and if not accepted and loved turn out uglier from sitting around not being able to do anything socially.

Saturday, May 18, 2024

Some of Andre Rieu's People

Emma Kok - 16-year-old solo singer girl
- She is nice and there to model her beauty. She is a "true" Dutch girl, with some more positive repercussions among the crowd as I'd hoped.

Serena - violinist girl with long bright very light hair
- She may be closer to Andre Rieu than his son Pierre, but I'd rather hear him say, "That doesn't matter," or "No, she's not," which means it's the answer to the question in this way but not overall in every way. You've got to get into what's running our lives and talk about these things in a nice way, like this. Also, it won't come out bad later?

Annabelle - brunette violinist, young, supple, very thin, Australian
- a true English girl.. nuff said

Maja - young floutist
- Notorious for her white hair, so better watch out?

Percussionists
- They are a great family but hard to get close to, great Dutch family, in the music I hope.

Laurianne
- She's a spunky violinist, blonde.

Joline
- Dutch blonde singer, tall and slender. She's so nice but needs to be protected.

Sanne
- English horn? Such a sweet girl!

Micaela
- white blonde solo singer, so sweet!

Nadejda
- white blonde violist, very cool!

Virgenie
- blonde violinist? very sweet.

Christina
- Choral singer with a solo this season, very cute!

Violin

Maybe, I should just collecting sheet music that come with MIDIs/karaokes.

Idea

I guess on the computer notate a song I make up and practice them on violin, but I wonder if I can make a MIDI easily.

Dance Classes

Monday - Modern - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 4:50-5:45 P.M.
Monday - Contemporary - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 5:50-6:45 P.M.
Monday - Jazz - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 6:50-7:45 P.M.
Monday - Flexibility & Injury Prevention - 1/2 Hour - Age 9-Adult - 7:50-8:20 P.M.
Monday - Musical Theatre - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 8:25-9:20 P.M.

Tuesday - Ballet - 1 1/2 Hours - Level IV-V - Age 9-Adult - 6:25-7:55 P.M.

Wednesday - Ballet - 1/2 Hour - Pre-Pointe - Age 9-Adult - 4:45-5:15 P.M.
Wednesday - Leaps, Turns, Jumps, Stretch & Flexibility - 45 Minutes - Level III - Teen/Adult - 5:20-6:05 P.M.
Wednesday - Hip Hop - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 7:10-8:05 P.M.
Wednesday - Contemporary - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 8:10-9:05 P.M.

Thursday - Tap - 55 Minutes - Intro-III - Age7-Adult - 8:30-9:25 P.M.


2 buses - 1 hour 15 minutes

Well, I just read this schedule is til May 2024.  That's now, and I start maybe June.

Isn't it just a dream come true and more and you can wear nice clothes.

It's 11 classes, probably around 11 hours.  I should be able to afford it, especially since I stayed in a cheap little old apartment, not too too dangerous.

Playlist Today

so far, at least

link

High School - What I Could Have Done & TESL & My Parents' Speaking

Salmen High School

After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Dance @ Galloway's & Violin

Year 1
1- English II
2- Geometry
3- Biology
4- Career Orientation | Civics
5- PE
6- French I
7- Spanish I

Year 2
1- English III
2- Algebra II
3- Chemistry
4- World History
5- French II
6- Spanish II
7- German I

Year 3
1- English IV
2- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
3- Physics
4- American History
5- French III
6- Spanish III
7- German II

Year 4
1- Calculus
2- Chemistry II
3- Biology II
4- PE | Health
5- French IV
6- Spanish IV
7- German III | Free Enterprise

College - Violin, French, Spanish...

I'd be with the foreign exchange students!  I had one here in 12th grade but switched to another high school.  I'm so glad now I'm doing a BS in TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language) online.  I haven't officially started and still need to send my transcripts.  It sounds more affordable when I tried to look these things up, I think.  I hope FAFSA and the grants make it free.  I wonder if I can learn European languages: German, French, ...  I wanted to do classical music in Germany or France.  I like other countries, too.  Another big one is England.  At least, I'll have my Bachelor's.  My mom's major was basically esl, English as a Second Language.  Her speaking is beautiful.  I compared her to my dad, who did super well according to professors, in Engilsh, but he majored in Psychology.  I read their essays/writing and the corrections my dad made to my mom in them.  I miss them so much in this way.  I didn't get to do this often.  My mom was in higher education! or whatever.  It was so cool.

I need to figure out what to do in Dance, too.

"For Sale"

I'm selling my squid painting online for $1.  I make like 45 cents.  It's the cheapest allowed.

Shower

I'm supposed to take a shower soon.  I don't feel like it yet.  It's during the day allowed for me today or something.  I was thinking of napping... again.

College

I applied for the BS in TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language) online!  LU (Liberty University.)  I think it's more affordable.  I like this school too.  It has some good kinds of programs.

My Painting - Squid

I can sell it when I have 20 cents.

Andre Rieu and What Sucks

Never ask Andre Rieu an important question, he doesn't have to answer.  Way to keep a cleaner record.

Something sucks, it seems that it's that when I'm alone and have resources the people monitoring me in private bother me, like they are trying to copy Ashley as a coping skill and to annoy me.  Being institutionalized in uncomfortable places, they didn't' do that as much overall, and I don't wanna hafta be here.  They can be different, but still that's what it is or maybe "was."  It shouldn't depend on if I have lots of food to make it worse if I don't have it together then.  That's the base of my life that sucks, anyway.

I don't like how it's been established that some Baby Boomers are material for either not being considered to ever talk to someone younger or are only for "the best."  They are acting like it's impossible for me because of race and getting into my private life of what my parents did without being nice about it.  May as well accept all Caucasians, too.  They aren't good with other races, at all, being included.

Friday, May 17, 2024

Facebook

If I make money, like Barb, I will have a nice guest room or so to take in families in need that are comfortable around me personally like family. I will donate to those in need individually and since I’m smart chose what happens to that money. It’s always good to have a backup plan and make sure help doesn’t find itself the wrong way.

Relative

Dad with his youngest sister’s only daughter’s youngest of two children, sons, who has a different dad than her oldest son.

Frilly

Link

Crystal's Private World 🦄 🙄 😒 🧐 🤨 🥀 💙 🩵 🥶 🫨 🤳 🪵 🐒🦍 🐾 🪱

Crystal ran away in private and cuddled up in a little room of hers she made out with a blanket and pillow on a cushion on the floor. She wasn't sobbing because she was busy thinking. She had a picture in a frame of her mom and looked at it. She knew her name was Bridget Speele. Crystal was now 14 years old, and her mom was only 19 when she was born. She was to never see her again. Lucky she was born, unless she was taken out early.

Crystal felt horrified. She was always nice to everyone. She had the orchestra secretly jealous of her being the last of the great Andre Rieu's daughters. He had one girl named Frilly who was 16 and an older girl named Joanna who was 20. Now, Andre Rieu was in love interests with another woman named Joan. She was supposed to meet her dad who she never saw but now he never knew her and just kept up with her older part sister little Frilly, who shared mothers who were half sisters. Felicity was gone, anyway, gave a good show.

She was in a cozy place to herself, a cavern in a tavern. It was beautiful outside there, a lovely garden and the skies above. There were dewdrops all around. There were birds grazing.

She went out and strolled slowly, trying to help not even dreaming of her dad the great Andre Rieu. She just didn't want to feel bad around everyone she knew and grow to be that way meeting a blank stranger checking her social background. She pulled out her cellphone and checked Facebook.

Frilly

Link

Crystal's Puzzle-ments 🍄 🤔 🥸 💀 😥 🥀 🦕 🧸 🚥 🔊

Crystal was caught and crying and could not get out. She was all alone. What escape was there? Drugs? In a world where Andre Rieu's musicians were at her for their excuses constantly going about being jealous of her, when they would find how much they need not ever be, it's like the world said wait don't do drugs, we'll fix this somehow, you won't all be jealous of little kids now. But these leaders were swarmed and consumed and swallowed up whole, as if by huge snakes.

What did the drugs have to do with her? Just that, then? No one cared to look into anything, as if there was no answer, to all her problems, and no one would leave her alone or treat her normal and talk to her. She was a great person, but so much for being the youngest of the great Andre Rieu, who had 2 daughters, Frilly and Crystal. Frilly was with his first wife, Felicity, and Crystal was from the woods in a romance with another girl who was very young. Now, Andre Rieu flirts with Joanna, and Felicity is barely seen.

Out of the shadows came a real bully with crooked teeth and a missing tooth, a tall lanky boy with yellow dusty faded hair a little spiky and combed back to the side, pale blue eyes, peach skin. "So," he said approaching her, a shadow in the open light. He scuttled in. He kneeled down and put his arm around her and said, "Trust in me!"

"No!" said Crystal, going back into his arm. She ran away, and the sickly boy could not even keep up.

Andre Rieu's Musicians

I'm tired of being humiliated by some of Andre Rieu's musicians.

Problem

I have health problems.

Problem

I didn't ask for these folks to come into my life now and tire me out.  I was gonna do something.

Joni "Settles for Less"

Why does Joni not get pestered with problems with Andre, like other people recommending her out?

Andre is a great thing.  It's not like since I'm great I don't have him cuz he's not good enough.  Or I do great things in life like I didn't accept his conducting.

Andre & Joni

I guess Joni and Andre are just too perfect for each other.

It looks like he's just being mean to me, not saying I'm 2nd.

The Greats

I should look to the greats in the arts, not like oh someone who does music is nothing in art.  I always thought musicians were good at art, dancing/ballet.  It's not that they've done it but that they chose an art to be good at.  The arts movements followed each other in history, seems somewhat magically.

Lunch

Lunch was a salad, the nursing home's chef salad, minus the dressing since I didn't apply it.

I just opened a cup of applesauce from last night.

I'm glad I came here and learned of that kidney disease exists.  I think I'm loving this insulin, now.

I still didn't finish the salad.

I have the doctor appointment on the phone later now, 2:00 P.M.  It should be better than what the last test results produced, or was it the brain scan and now it's a different blood sampling?

I'm glad I had the McDonald's treat last night, but it'd be to spend $40 or $50 at Applebee's or whatever it is at Outback for a full course meal or whatever it is.  Wouldn't it be nice if my art sold?  I can paint, I can play.

Breakfast

I just had a small bowl of "cream of wheat" and a small cinnamon roll.

I'm sick of their eggs, and the bacon isn't that great.

I'm having some iced tea from last night's "snack cart."

This is so not enough.  I might get some money from an app, looks like around $150, $100.  I'll save it for when I really need to order food, maybe for my birthday Monday.  I have enough for 1 more DoorDash, since last night's emergency.  I have like $19 left.  You know, I slept in after waking up once at 4, which has maybe never happened.  I feel I slept well.  My dreams weren't so impulsively dangerous, neither, like some had been.  I wonder if I can afford Outback, something worthwhile there or really tasty.

Right now, I'm sucking on a cough drop and eyeing my bed.

It sucks I didn't go home earlier this month.

So I could save money for postponed rent, I wish I didn't plan to maybe move to another apartment in April and went home already.  I was supposedly able to, but they still haven't..  I should have gone home long ago.  They've made me nervous.

Food

I got a double quarter pounder at McDonald's, combo.

There was supposed to be a BBQ earlier today, but it was put at lunch when I ordered a salad instead of the regular lunch.  Hamburgers & hot dogs.  My breakfast was only a small bowl of something ("cream of wheat."  It does taste good, but it was too small.)  Lunch was part of their chef salad, yet again.  (I ordered hamburgers half the replacements for next week.)  Supper was some steamed un-fresh vegetables, a half a slice of garlic thick white sliced bread, and maybe 4 large raviolis but not like 1/2 the plate large.  I did have a thin frozen pizza earlier today, regular cheese, from Dollar Tree online.  I walked a lot outside and went to the *party*, too.  It was kinda hot out, with a cool breeze, though.

I don't even have enough for my birthday, as of now, and it looks like I won't unless I get birthday money or money for my new squid art I have to do a painting possibly traced of.  I wanted to make something worth $20.  I'm not crazy about details being made up, so it's gonna look a little retarded but fun.  Hopefully no problems..  I did some of these before, so I know about what it's like and am ready to get started.  I wonder if cartoon strips are worth a lot.