I wonder if I tried really hard just to have blue eyes, and then expected my hair to get lighter as it was already brown, born black with a brown tint. Many fair white blondes are born with black hair? Many aren't? Also, my skin was flushed. It seems all the attention went to my younger brother with the fair tanned skin.. A lotta people popular like that.
Sunday, May 19, 2024
Music Teachers
I thought of why music teachers think they're so cool. They don't look like silly performers with a lack of talent. Their talent is being s**y for children etc.
They're the way of the future. They stand for children and failure of adults as musical performers ever.
Were you ever "ready?"
Maybe not as pretty as a child or whenever, but to say you were willing to do what you should to look cute as a child or whatever?
My theory is that people born around 1961 - 1970s are peeved at kids who aren't as attractive as Baby Boomers. Most people are just as good as each other and if not accepted and loved turn out uglier from sitting around not being able to do anything socially.
Saturday, May 18, 2024
Some of Andre Rieu's People
Emma Kok - 16-year-old solo singer girl
- She is nice and there to model her beauty. She is a "true" Dutch girl, with some more positive repercussions among the crowd as I'd hoped.
Serena - violinist girl with long bright very light hair
- She may be closer to Andre Rieu than his son Pierre, but I'd rather hear him say, "That doesn't matter," or "No, she's not," which means it's the answer to the question in this way but not overall in every way. You've got to get into what's running our lives and talk about these things in a nice way, like this. Also, it won't come out bad later?
Annabelle - brunette violinist, young, supple, very thin, Australian
- a true English girl.. nuff said
Maja - young floutist
- Notorious for her white hair, so better watch out?
Percussionists
- They are a great family but hard to get close to, great Dutch family, in the music I hope.
Laurianne
- She's a spunky violinist, blonde.
Joline
- Dutch blonde singer, tall and slender. She's so nice but needs to be protected.
Sanne
- English horn? Such a sweet girl!
Micaela
- white blonde solo singer, so sweet!
Nadejda
- white blonde violist, very cool!
Virgenie
- blonde violinist? very sweet.
Christina
- Choral singer with a solo this season, very cute!
Idea
I guess on the computer notate a song I make up and practice them on violin, but I wonder if I can make a MIDI easily.
Dance Classes
Monday - Modern - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 4:50-5:45 P.M.
Monday - Contemporary - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 5:50-6:45 P.M.
Monday - Jazz - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 6:50-7:45 P.M.
Monday - Flexibility & Injury Prevention - 1/2 Hour - Age 9-Adult - 7:50-8:20 P.M.
Monday - Musical Theatre - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 8:25-9:20 P.M.
Tuesday - Ballet - 1 1/2 Hours - Level IV-V - Age 9-Adult - 6:25-7:55 P.M.
Wednesday - Ballet - 1/2 Hour - Pre-Pointe - Age 9-Adult - 4:45-5:15 P.M.
Wednesday - Leaps, Turns, Jumps, Stretch & Flexibility - 45 Minutes - Level III - Teen/Adult - 5:20-6:05 P.M.
Wednesday - Hip Hop - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 7:10-8:05 P.M.
Wednesday - Contemporary - 55 Minutes - Level III-IV - Age 9-Adult - 8:10-9:05 P.M.
Thursday - Tap - 55 Minutes - Intro-III - Age7-Adult - 8:30-9:25 P.M.
2 buses - 1 hour 15 minutes
Well, I just read this schedule is til May 2024. That's now, and I start maybe June.
Isn't it just a dream come true and more and you can wear nice clothes.
It's 11 classes, probably around 11 hours. I should be able to afford it, especially since I stayed in a cheap little old apartment, not too too dangerous.
High School - What I Could Have Done & TESL & My Parents' Speaking
Salmen High School
After School - Ballet @ Giacobbe & Dance @ Galloway's & Violin
Year 1
1- English II
2- Geometry
3- Biology
4- Career Orientation | Civics
5- PE
6- French I
7- Spanish I
Year 2
1- English III
2- Algebra II
3- Chemistry
4- World History
5- French II
6- Spanish II
7- German I
Year 3
1- English IV
2- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
3- Physics
4- American History
5- French III
6- Spanish III
7- German II
Year 4
1- Calculus
2- Chemistry II
3- Biology II
4- PE | Health
5- French IV
6- Spanish IV
7- German III | Free Enterprise
College - Violin, French, Spanish...
I'd be with the foreign exchange students! I had one here in 12th grade but switched to another high school. I'm so glad now I'm doing a BS in TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language) online. I haven't officially started and still need to send my transcripts. It sounds more affordable when I tried to look these things up, I think. I hope FAFSA and the grants make it free. I wonder if I can learn European languages: German, French, ... I wanted to do classical music in Germany or France. I like other countries, too. Another big one is England. At least, I'll have my Bachelor's. My mom's major was basically esl, English as a Second Language. Her speaking is beautiful. I compared her to my dad, who did super well according to professors, in Engilsh, but he majored in Psychology. I read their essays/writing and the corrections my dad made to my mom in them. I miss them so much in this way. I didn't get to do this often. My mom was in higher education! or whatever. It was so cool.
I need to figure out what to do in Dance, too.
"For Sale"
I'm selling my squid painting online for $1. I make like 45 cents. It's the cheapest allowed.
Shower
I'm supposed to take a shower soon. I don't feel like it yet. It's during the day allowed for me today or something. I was thinking of napping... again.
College
I applied for the BS in TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language) online! LU (Liberty University.) I think it's more affordable. I like this school too. It has some good kinds of programs.
Andre Rieu and What Sucks
Never ask Andre Rieu an important question, he doesn't have to answer. Way to keep a cleaner record.
Something sucks, it seems that it's that when I'm alone and have resources the people monitoring me in private bother me, like they are trying to copy Ashley as a coping skill and to annoy me. Being institutionalized in uncomfortable places, they didn't' do that as much overall, and I don't wanna hafta be here. They can be different, but still that's what it is or maybe "was." It shouldn't depend on if I have lots of food to make it worse if I don't have it together then. That's the base of my life that sucks, anyway.
I don't like how it's been established that some Baby Boomers are material for either not being considered to ever talk to someone younger or are only for "the best." They are acting like it's impossible for me because of race and getting into my private life of what my parents did without being nice about it. May as well accept all Caucasians, too. They aren't good with other races, at all, being included.
Friday, May 17, 2024
If I make money, like Barb, I will have a nice guest room or so to take in families in need that are comfortable around me personally like family. I will donate to those in need individually and since I’m smart chose what happens to that money. It’s always good to have a backup plan and make sure help doesn’t find itself the wrong way.
Relative
Dad with his youngest sister’s only daughter’s youngest of two children, sons, who has a different dad than her oldest son.
Frilly
Crystal's Private World 🦄 🙄 😒 🧐 🤨 🥀 💙 🩵 🥶 🫨 🤳 🪵 🐒🦍 🐾 🪱
Crystal ran away in private and cuddled up in a little room of hers she made out with a blanket and pillow on a cushion on the floor. She wasn't sobbing because she was busy thinking. She had a picture in a frame of her mom and looked at it. She knew her name was Bridget Speele. Crystal was now 14 years old, and her mom was only 19 when she was born. She was to never see her again. Lucky she was born, unless she was taken out early.
Crystal felt horrified. She was always nice to everyone. She had the orchestra secretly jealous of her being the last of the great Andre Rieu's daughters. He had one girl named Frilly who was 16 and an older girl named Joanna who was 20. Now, Andre Rieu was in love interests with another woman named Joan. She was supposed to meet her dad who she never saw but now he never knew her and just kept up with her older part sister little Frilly, who shared mothers who were half sisters. Felicity was gone, anyway, gave a good show.
She was in a cozy place to herself, a cavern in a tavern. It was beautiful outside there, a lovely garden and the skies above. There were dewdrops all around. There were birds grazing.
She went out and strolled slowly, trying to help not even dreaming of her dad the great Andre Rieu. She just didn't want to feel bad around everyone she knew and grow to be that way meeting a blank stranger checking her social background. She pulled out her cellphone and checked Facebook.
Frilly
Crystal's Puzzle-ments 🍄 🤔 🥸 💀 😥 🥀 🦕 🧸 🚥 🔊
Crystal was caught and crying and could not get out. She was all alone. What escape was there? Drugs? In a world where Andre Rieu's musicians were at her for their excuses constantly going about being jealous of her, when they would find how much they need not ever be, it's like the world said wait don't do drugs, we'll fix this somehow, you won't all be jealous of little kids now. But these leaders were swarmed and consumed and swallowed up whole, as if by huge snakes.
What did the drugs have to do with her? Just that, then? No one cared to look into anything, as if there was no answer, to all her problems, and no one would leave her alone or treat her normal and talk to her. She was a great person, but so much for being the youngest of the great Andre Rieu, who had 2 daughters, Frilly and Crystal. Frilly was with his first wife, Felicity, and Crystal was from the woods in a romance with another girl who was very young. Now, Andre Rieu flirts with Joanna, and Felicity is barely seen.
Out of the shadows came a real bully with crooked teeth and a missing tooth, a tall lanky boy with yellow dusty faded hair a little spiky and combed back to the side, pale blue eyes, peach skin. "So," he said approaching her, a shadow in the open light. He scuttled in. He kneeled down and put his arm around her and said, "Trust in me!"
"No!" said Crystal, going back into his arm. She ran away, and the sickly boy could not even keep up.
Problem
I didn't ask for these folks to come into my life now and tire me out. I was gonna do something.
Joni "Settles for Less"
Why does Joni not get pestered with problems with Andre, like other people recommending her out?
Andre is a great thing. It's not like since I'm great I don't have him cuz he's not good enough. Or I do great things in life like I didn't accept his conducting.
Andre & Joni
I guess Joni and Andre are just too perfect for each other.
It looks like he's just being mean to me, not saying I'm 2nd.
The Greats
I should look to the greats in the arts, not like oh someone who does music is nothing in art. I always thought musicians were good at art, dancing/ballet. It's not that they've done it but that they chose an art to be good at. The arts movements followed each other in history, seems somewhat magically.
Lunch
Lunch was a salad, the nursing home's chef salad, minus the dressing since I didn't apply it.
I just opened a cup of applesauce from last night.
I'm glad I came here and learned of that kidney disease exists. I think I'm loving this insulin, now.
I still didn't finish the salad.
I have the doctor appointment on the phone later now, 2:00 P.M. It should be better than what the last test results produced, or was it the brain scan and now it's a different blood sampling?
I'm glad I had the McDonald's treat last night, but it'd be to spend $40 or $50 at Applebee's or whatever it is at Outback for a full course meal or whatever it is. Wouldn't it be nice if my art sold? I can paint, I can play.
Breakfast
I just had a small bowl of "cream of wheat" and a small cinnamon roll.
I'm sick of their eggs, and the bacon isn't that great.
I'm having some iced tea from last night's "snack cart."
This is so not enough. I might get some money from an app, looks like around $150, $100. I'll save it for when I really need to order food, maybe for my birthday Monday. I have enough for 1 more DoorDash, since last night's emergency. I have like $19 left. You know, I slept in after waking up once at 4, which has maybe never happened. I feel I slept well. My dreams weren't so impulsively dangerous, neither, like some had been. I wonder if I can afford Outback, something worthwhile there or really tasty.
Right now, I'm sucking on a cough drop and eyeing my bed.
It sucks I didn't go home earlier this month.
So I could save money for postponed rent, I wish I didn't plan to maybe move to another apartment in April and went home already. I was supposedly able to, but they still haven't.. I should have gone home long ago. They've made me nervous.
Food
I got a double quarter pounder at McDonald's, combo.
There was supposed to be a BBQ earlier today, but it was put at lunch when I ordered a salad instead of the regular lunch. Hamburgers & hot dogs. My breakfast was only a small bowl of something ("cream of wheat." It does taste good, but it was too small.) Lunch was part of their chef salad, yet again. (I ordered hamburgers half the replacements for next week.) Supper was some steamed un-fresh vegetables, a half a slice of garlic thick white sliced bread, and maybe 4 large raviolis but not like 1/2 the plate large. I did have a thin frozen pizza earlier today, regular cheese, from Dollar Tree online. I walked a lot outside and went to the *party*, too. It was kinda hot out, with a cool breeze, though.
I don't even have enough for my birthday, as of now, and it looks like I won't unless I get birthday money or money for my new squid art I have to do a painting possibly traced of. I wanted to make something worth $20. I'm not crazy about details being made up, so it's gonna look a little retarded but fun. Hopefully no problems.. I did some of these before, so I know about what it's like and am ready to get started. I wonder if cartoon strips are worth a lot.
Thursday, May 16, 2024
Frilly
Family Ties 🚂🚃🚃🚃 🔥💖 🎉🙉 💚 🍄 🏜 🥀 🌩⛈🌨☔🫧🌈 ❤🔥 🦄
"All aboard!" shouted the conductor.
Andre Rieu's glorious orchestra boarded the train, diligently, Frilly bringing up the rear, as Andre selectively nudged her rear and lifted her to him and sat her across his lap, a strong but petite girl.
Crystal was Frilly's new little sister. No one knew about her until now. She was 13 years old, still young and bright, not quite 16 but still over 12.
She was very independent and "snazzy," would be the word. She found a seat with some girls in the back, mystified and intrigued at their jealousy of her being Andre's youngest, looking forward to how it felt to be around him.
Crystal was already very good at reading and was learning to speak more Spanish in the train. She ordered some food and was very rich from her "hidden talents."
Today, she had a French braid up to one side. Of course, she did it herself. Her hair was a bright blonde. Her eyes were sapphire, so you be the judge of what's that. Her hair was also gold like expensive jewelry, or perhaps "24 karat gold." Sometimes, it twinkled like platinum.
Crystal had see through long sleeves on, a nice turquoise or greenish blue, bunched up. She had a little dress of see through material and long paints bunched up at the bottom in a silky stretchy material for little young girls. The cuffs were a deep indigo. The front was plain with a big collar of deep indigo, as well. There were sparkles all over it in a bright light blue. Her shoes were like elf boots, a bright shiny blue with laces on the side slanted so it wasn't so noticeable and could be adjusted in size. Her hair band was also bright light blue, a thick ponytail holder. She learned to make these herself. She had her nice drawstring bag that worked as waterproof. Her hair flipped at the end, and her long thick bangs were swept to the side.
Her book was starting to get a little tiring, but it was good, though so she put it down, away in her bag and ordered more to eat to fill her belly up.
Andre Rieu's orchestra filed out the cars, clitter-clatter. Clip clop, flip flop.
Frilly bounded out. She patted Crystal who smiled back. Peter and Philomena, twins who were Andre's nephew and niece, had Andre on their minds. They were a mischievous pair who were rather attractive and well-off and got along well, but they didn't dazzle like Crystal, the package deal here. Frilly was close to her dad. She walked hand in hand with Andre, who led her on. She was pretty in a nice long pink dress she made. The material was so thick and soft, and she got to making it, herself.
Joanna was Andre's philanderer. She was herself an all in one "package deal." No one was too jealous of her like they were of Crystal actively in their minds and in how they acted in some ways, some ways obvious and cloaked and some ways "not so obvious."
Crystal was a little worn out physically, so Andre picked up and carried his little baby girl. She was in good spirits, but Andre coo'd her to settle down. He talked to her, and she tried to talk, as well, but he relaxed her again.
High School & College - Projection
Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
Dance Team
Year 1
1- Religion I
2- English II
3- Geometry
4- Biology I
5- History
6- French I
7- Spanish I
Year 2
1- Religion II
2- English III
3- Algebra II
4- Chemistry I
5- History
6- French II
7- Spanish II
Year 3
1- Religion III
2- English IV
3- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
4- History
5- PE | Health
6- French III
7- Spanish III
Year 4
1- Religion IV
2- English V
3- Calculus
4- Physics
5- PE
6- French IV
7- Spanish IV
College - Loyola University New Orleans - BM Music Performance - Violin ... French & Spanish ... Dance Team
High School - What I Might Have Done
Pope John Paul II Catholic High School
Dance Team
Year 1
1- Religion I
2- English I
3- Geometry
4- History
5- Physical Science
6- PE | Health
7- French I
Year 2
1- Religion II
2- English II
3- Algebra II
4- History
5- Biology I
6- PE II
7- French II
Year 3
1- Religion III
2- English III
3- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
4- History
5- Chemistry I
6- French III
7- Art I
Year 4
1- Religion IV
2- English IV
3- Calculus
4- Physics
5- French IV
6- Art II
7-
Am I missing something?
Are people approachable?
Andre Rieu is like a wax figure, a relic of the past, representing classical music. His dad I know was already a conductor himself. They had a save haven in the Netherlands (Dutch) as a French family. Everyone fondles him to this day for it.
They must be affected to a point of that which did not really happen to people yet. Maybe it happened to the musicians and not the music. It's made into such a big deal, this mess.
The Kind!
What kinda crap is Cleveland? Crusty. I woke up the next morning and they thought I had a moment, last night, when some people were being abusive. In fact, it's their project this morning.
Too Late?
I didn't do Dance Team because my mom said I could spend the summer with her mom visiting. I was in "ballet," anyway?
Continued - It's "the buzz."
...that I'm not good enough for Andre Rieu.
Go find something else to do, you pigs.
Peeved
People seem to think Andre Rieu is "better" than me, and I don't care to entertain them.
Why should that affect my life with others?
Wednesday, May 15, 2024
High School - What I Wish I Did
Salmen High School
Year 1
1- Dance Team
2- Elective
3- English II
4- Algebra II
5- Chemistry
6- Career Orientation | Civics
7- PE I
Year 2
1- Dance Team
2- Elective
3- English III
4- Advanced Math | Trigonometry
5- Physics
6- World History
7- PE II | Health
Year 3
1- Dance Team
2- Elective
3- English IV
4- Calculus
5- Chemistry II
6- American History
7- Free Enterprise | PE II
Year 4
1- Dance Team
2- Elective
3- Biology II
4- PE III
5-
6-
7-
Where is this going?
If Andre Rieu is maybe never meeting with me much at all, then why is he less adamant towards me musically than a college professor or general 1990s aficionado. He even looks intimidated about me regarding the existence of the topic in general with anyone. It makes me feel ^uncomfortable^! His excuse is that I'll get all this other ^stuff^ instead, like I want...see where I'm going, am I gonna get stuff I need then? socially.
You know, my "pet peeve" with his group but not him is that they're just waiting for me to freshen up and get in shape before I can do anything at all in life or make any move even if it's not like them performing in front of other people with Andre Rieu at their mercy. They themselves have nothing to offer, in the way they expect me to offer something.
Andre Rieu
Why does Andre Rieu seem passionate against people who self-glorify over tunes like "Chopsticks" on the piano and the opening tune of "Beethoven's 5th.."
It's just like the Freiburger Barockorchester, my passion for pleasure in music is not met with any affection or even approval as a musician technically.
Andre Rieu's Orchestra
If Andre Rieu's orchestra keeps acting sad to me they aren't Andre Rieu himself, why are they on Instagram inactively?? It's not a place for people to "play around." I'm in life to talk without other people talking over me all the time. 'And I don't just play "Chopsticks" on the piano-
Don't Fit In
I don't like what's lurking about here.
I'm missing what other people already have Up North, at this point. I wonder what I attain by lingering here, for now. It looks like the good ole days are gone, anywhere, in different ways.
Bad People Anywhere
Apparently, they like to surprise you as Clevelanders.
It just makes me not know where to live, sometimes. I'm pointlessly wandering around pleasing people.
"Decisions Decisions"
I bought stuff to make acrylic paintings for $35 to sell on Etsy. I got 10 canvases, like 10" x 10", almost a foot long.
..I figured, I'd use it for DoorDash if I didn't. At home, I'll get EveryPlate, which is delicious, and I'll not have this problem. Plus, I'm trying to work from home, even now.
Why should I care?
Everyone I meet is just trying to annoy me.
Soon, I will have my independence.
They are ghey.
Andre Rieu
For complaining about Andre Rieu, they sure make a big fuss over him.
Hey, it's Andre's big day, not the orchestra's. Foo-y, orchestras don't appreciate anything.
Tuesday, May 14, 2024
"The TV"
I don't even wanna watch these people in these commercials.
I turned the cooking channel on!
Family Names
I guess a lot of the German is probably PA Dutch, or Swiss.
Donahue
Noon
Barber
Burkhart
Kifer
Work
Mortimer
Long
Shultz
Rickard
Nofsker/Naftzger (Switzerland 1764)
Armstrong (Ireland)
Little
Lemon
Bastian
Bestchler
Plotner
Gordon
Family Names
listed on side of blog
Barrett Donahue Noon
Barber Burkhart Kifer
Work Mortimer Long Shultz Rickard Nofsker Armstrong Little
Important Things
Lots of stuff is important to people like it's their big moment out in the open and they go home safe somehow.
Why isn't TV filled with a maze to the right amount of money and instructions to work for it?
Monday, May 13, 2024
What I Was Gonna Do, at a Community College
I was thinking of 1 class at a time to slowly raise my GPA and get A's, or B's. However, I like working online so might not "need" it. I mean, if I went I was gonna go for music, or for fun..
Work Online
It seems like it's part time, after all. 1/2 - 1 hour a day, $50-$100/day. That could be $500/week or $2,000/month.
I like making some money.
I don't know if there is any use going to college now. I was gonna go to a community college. I like working online, so far, just learning something. So far, it's simple.. what I have, at least.
I am on Social Security, now $2,045/month.
Sunday, May 12, 2024
Double Major @ BW?
Theater - Dance and Movement - Dance and Movement Concentration
Violin Performance
Just take it slowly.
Charity
I'm so proud of this girl on America Ninja Warrior donating some of her raised / money to cancer research, a worthy field.
I told a guy in the nursing home younger than me who seems a bit hopeless in his case that I wonder if I have to drop by, and I guess like the tooth fairy, and donate money to people the government locks up for not working or being able to work if not a big physical disability, if they do get money it gets taken away for hospitalization in a home or if it's rather SSI.
Frilly
Crystal's Joyful Toy-Filled Reminiscent Adventures of Coy, Light-Hearted Self-Portrayal, Early in Life 💕🌺
In a world where people weren't inclined to show EVERYONE love and pretend it was hard to give sometimes not hard to deserve when it is.. was little Crystal at age 4. Her father Andre Rieu was 24. He had an older daughter Frilly who was 5. He even had twins named Peter Pan and Willomeena who were 6. So far, Crystal was the youngest.
So, there it was, it was a big, happy family, "in my humble opinion," or "I.M.H.O." It was like an entire, whole community, adjunct to the orchestra of the father, Andre Rieu, a violinist of talent.
😢
So, Crystal was the object of jealousy overall. She hardly got any attention. Everyone wanted to be the littlest girl, the littlest one of the talented, unspeakably great Andre Rieu.
Andre always played with his little Frilly, the frailest child, his pride and his joy. In fact, we didn't even know Crystal existed until now! Did Andre?
Peter and Pan and Willomeena were sometimes inseparable, when together. They were "getting into things," and, so, that means everybody liked them. In fact, that's why they did it, as Andre may well know, in ways, or easily grasp the concept of and understand its existence in his portal of parenthood.
🤡
Obviously, something was wrong. Andre probably saw it as a big thing to take care of later, and no one else cared. He had a friend named Trump who agreed, like Mafia, the French Mafia.
🥸
Hey, it's time to play dress up at a dance party, and Willowmeena goes and dresses up as a cat! Ha! Made ya look!
😈
What a little devil, what a little daredevil.
Back to Crystal and her problems. Everyone looks at her.
Andre brings his little baby out, a shy girl with very bright white hair and very bright, light, baby blue eyes, and flushed cheeks and golden on cream skin. 🫠
She is bright and merry, very happy all the time. That is her aim in life. She doesn't cling to her daddy, she goes out to the orchestra and talks to them.
She is very sensitive. She goes back to Andre and folds into him like a flower with her little baby dress she helped design and make a little with Andre and someone else. Andre brushes her into him and he puts her in the rehearsal stadium and emporium daycare centre.
So, it was time for a great performance far away across the sea, before airplanes were driven as often by large groups as across the sea in a huge fairy-boat, a cruise-ship.
Andre carried little Frilly in as usual.
Crystal followed with an accompanying daycare in line and waved at Andre, cheerily.
When Frilly was alone in the cabin she stayed in with Andre, Andre went in an adult hot tub.
Funny Dream
I hate how I can't breathe well in my dreams, and I know I'm dreaming and sometimes try to stay asleep.
I had a nice room and arrived with my younger brother, who was small sometimes.
I got myself employment maybe to my mom's surprise.
Something happened and I seemed to have an attitude. Barb found out, and she was pursuing me and like my mom was saying. I know I found 1 huge pill instead of many, and something else. Barb kept chasing me. My mom, too.
I imagined a big guy finally who came, like a puppet or Barney, but he was just a person, kinda looked like my martial arts teacher but wanted him to be generic.
I also remember I had a backpack of stuff and some people were going to sports, athletics, or tennis with me. I think I was on the basketball team to be. I felt so good. I was still pursued and threatened. The people at work would not fire me but one followed me earlier, I think, or went in to me kinda for awhile, like a nice lady with smooth blonde hair.
For a long time, the feeling of me writing a story, this big creature kept holding me and carrying me in weird ways like he was bouncing and stuff, you know, like I couldn't make it out I was so uncomfortable. I imagined a string going under me and later a bit he said to imagine going up. I knew I was dreaming, too, and was afraid to wake up with the nurse there, again feeling it in my sleep, stimulation. I just try to make it feel strong and know it will probably stop. Too bad it's all in one area..
Anyway, I was a big girl and kept saying not to hurt my younger brother. Supposedly, the creature was drunk. I was so happy to be with my younger brother again. Maybe, the creature was even there.
So, I guess near the end it ends with, well lots of different things happened, too, like with Barb and with the creature too. So, near the end, I kinda had a faint image of him holding me and rubbing my face or head and everything saying like through my puppetry what was wrong and I kept saying how sad I was in the hospital in my dream that well nursing home that it's hard to breathe, like now, like I was crying and he kept holding me and I kept saying that. I dunno, is it???
Frilly
Crystal's Close Encounter of Two 🪷
It was time to go sailing again, and Crystal was all packed and ready to leave with her stuff.
She had on a nice outfit she crafted from the craft store with their creative material. She was a patchwork doll. It was yellow with zoo animals all over it. She put thick white lace at the bottom of the dress, which wasn't too wide and came to the middle of her thighs. She had bike shorts on underneath she made that weren't tight and that had ruffles. You didn't usually see them. She actually had on cool tights of royal blue. She had on cool shoes too with laces, little booties of shiny black with pointy toes. The dress had 3/4 sleeves with ruffles and lace a little shorter than at the bottom of the dress. It had a close scoop neck but no collar and buttons that didn't show much to the side. There was no waist. It just curved nicely. Her hair was tied with a big sash of lace sorta to the side, and her long bangs were swept to the side. The lace was white and thicker than the lace on her dress. It was nice and firm and not pleated. She had her nice bag, but it was not in the shape of an animal.
Andre knew she was worried about being seasick because she had seen it.
Frilly, as usual, was excited. A pretty lady was holding her, from France. They were going to look for animals. She was all excited. Her features and complexion was so patterned like Crystal.
Andre talked some to some people. He told Crystal he liked the animals on her lovely dress. He counted everyone as they toppled onto the ship. Crystal was confused and lagging behind, staying away from danger. Not to leave things "on the line."
Crystal started to sob, "Waah." "Andre," she out-bursted, "come save me."
So, she happened to be the youngest actually, at age 15.
She ran over to him and his behind him and sucked her sucker or pacifier, which was clean! and put her hand on him.
What a baby!
What antics!
"Thank you, Baby," he said, "for coming over and saving yourself and reporting this to me."
She hid behind him more and hugged him closer, a lot like Frilly would.
He turned around and held her hand close to him and said, "I'm going to pick you up now and stay with me."
He held the bottom of that gorgeous little cute dress to him and brought the rear up the ship proudly.
He puckered his lips to her close like a kiss and said, "It's gonna be alright." He looked at her playfully and giggled.
Frilly
Crystal Meeting With Andre 🗺🛩
Crystal was a cute baby girl at age 10. She wore glitter in her already shimmering blonde hair. It was pretty short and she had bangs swept to the side, pretty cool, right? Her eyes were sapphire. You be the judge what color that glows.. Her hair swirled at the ends, a beautiful rich yellow gold blonde, rather strong but tender somehow.
Andre bent down and looked at her and said what an adorable baby she was in his orchestra and how proud he was at her intelligence on her violins: regular, electric, and Baroque which is a smaller size. She stood straight up, bent a little and curtsied kindly, and said what a wonderful musician he was. "No, you, my dear," he replied, "I said you are wonderful in your work on the violins." She tipped her head forward and to the side so it was slantwise and smiled, grinning cheerfully, the cute girl she was.
Waiting
I might wait a semester so I get the dorm I want. I can take dance classes there, too, if I want to get there first and audition the next school year. I can do it at Tulane, too.
Dance Classes Here
Monday - Level 3-4 - Modern - Age 9-Adult
Monday - Level 3 - Jazz - Age 9-Adult
Monday - Flexibility & Injury Prevention - Age 9-Adult
Wednesday - Level 3 - Leaps, Turns, Jumps, Stretch & Flexibility - Teen/Adult
Wednesday - Level 3-4 - Contemporary - Age 9-Adult
I'll probably cancel my gym membership and exercise otherwise myself, as I will in college.
So, no hip hop, ballet... Tumbling is on Tuesday..
It might be like $140/month for this. June! or May but probably not.
New Idea
I can do French at Loyola so I can try out for Dance Team and try to take violin or major in it instead. So, that could be this Fall. I just need to send my transcripts in June or if I get significant birthday money from my younger brother and/or aunt/s, this year. I don't need to take extra classes or pile up courses. I can slip into honors again, enlightening in some cases.
Loyola
Violin Performance (BM)
- General Studies | Honors
- Music Requirements
- Violin & Orchestra
Dance Team
I'd better get ready when I feel better. There is a dance studio with good classes for adults to do near my home I go back to before June. I'm taking the violin slowly now I know the notes. I'm worried about the double scales I think 3 octaves. I wonder how long it will take to get into that. I have to do the literature, too, like every other school does, which is more important and fun. So, I guess playing 2 notes at the same time would naturally go in a scale, and I just have to learn the other positions, which I found links for I think already, and first the high notes but I can kinda find them easily, as well, though learning them first would be nice before coupling it with the positions.
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Apparently, since I ate when hungry I poo'd for the first time and it smelled like something and it wasn't liquidated kinda and sporadically uneven like, but it wasn't much.
Frilly
Link
Crystal the Spectre of a Creature 🤔
Crystal waltzed this way and that, like a ghost down the ballroom floor.
Crystal and Frilly were both French girls from France and were in the Netherlands with Andre Rieu and his orchestra.
So, Crystal was a boppit of a little creature. Crystal the Boppit!
She liked cute little dresses with ends on the dresses, like lace, cute things you could find at a craft store of a castle! Fabrics go in, fabrics come out! She played with cute colors and loved short dresses a lot in old fashioned style. She wore pants to cover her legs and was very popular. She was like a little girl out of a storybook.
Her hair is of glittering gold and platinum blonde and curls on the ends. She sweeps her long bangs to the side, and her hair is around her shoulders and layered at the bottom. Her eyes are sparkling like sapphire...whatever color that may be.
Frilly
Frilly's Little Gift and Crystal's Plight
Frilly was very French, this beautiful little angel of a princess. 👑
She had some friends in England she wanted to tend to and work on some music with. She was only 16. 😢
Crystal asked little Frilly, "Can I come, too?" Crystal was only 9. She was so excited she could hardly focus, it was like a dream.
Frilly said, abruptly, "No, Crystal, I'm sorry, but I don't have it together, myself, not like Andre!" 😅
Crystal said okay and left for Andre, all excited. 🎣
Frilly
Crystal and Frilly
Crystal was 14, and Frilly was 17. Crystal and Frilly were both little girls of Andre's orchestra. He loved them and them all dearly. He was amazed at their young talent and rewarded them with lots of love, alas! He was to become a great superstar, they all prayed, but an alone superstar. He had to play his cards right in dealing with the youngsters he brought along, so he wouldn't become a party pooper, sucking the souls of little children to make himself young. He was supposed to stay young and chipper to entertain the little ones and his generation of children and his own, his own relations. Of course, there had to be something in it for each generation, Golden, Early Boomers, Middle Boomers, Late Boomers, and XYZA.
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One wonders when one is alone what to do sometimes. It is a great job, a great "task at hand." "Great minds think alike!"
So, Frilly and Crystal. Frilly made her own clothes well, already, and had learned since she was a little girl. She had long blonde hair and blue eyes. Crystal was very athletic, like Frilly. She was "leaps and bounds," like a little sprite. She also utilized the skill of making her own clothes, since the ones in the stores were not just right, anyway. She didn't feel guilty, at all!
Saturday, May 11, 2024
Community College
I may need 1 more ensemble and 3 more semesters of violin lessons. Violin may be only 1 or 2 credit hours, too. I may be able to take it. It might be the priority favorite, unless I want to get in Theory now and save up for Spring. That would make sense, too. I may need 1 more History course, maybe more, in Music. I guess there will be conducting.
Community College
So, to graduate, I may need 1 or 2 math classes and 1 or 2 sciences classes. I probably will go in the Fall. I may only be able to afford 1 class and only have time for 1. I could also do Music Theory, if I can afford like $500. I wonder if I can go to Music Theory III since I know piano and chords so well. It would be so easy to catch up if I just ask the professor after class..
Community College
I was thinking of progressing towards my degree in music at Tri C.. a community college. Like $373 per 3 credit hour class. So, I might do one class at a time. If I do FAFSA, I may have to go full time, but maybe not. It won't pay for all the classes, I think. I still want just one class at a time, for now. Maybe two, later. I guess if summer just 1 class, maybe 2 the other semesters.
I feel safe Up North away from my dad, and mom. ... and now Barb, who is involved in my being monitored in private, and my parents passed away sick. There are some things I don't have apparently, but not really.
Maybe, my GPA will be a 3.0 someday, too bad I forgot to withdraw in the distracting environment and they are too stupid to help with my case.
"Father forgive me, for I have sinned..."
I listened to the suggestion of restless voices hating on me that me wanting to work hard for a good G.P.A. is bad.
I'm even more mortified by the question that a failed semester for some reason means that accumulating more good grades will not help and that seeking out Medical Withdrawals is not handled maturely and they keep telling you to call back.
High School
Year 1 - Salmen High School
1 - English II
2 - Geometry
3 - Biology
4 - Career Orientation | Civics
5 - PE
6 - Talented Art
7 - Yearbook?
Year 2 -
1 - English III
2 - Algebra II
3 - Chemistry
4 - World History
5 - PE | Health
6 - Talented Art
7 - Yearbook?
Work
Year 3 -
1 - English IV
2 - American History
3 - Free Enterprise | PE
4 - Talented Art
5 - Yearbook?
6 -
7 -
Work
Community College...
Joke
It's a "family business" that everything for me is okay and that Ashley means business and Joni also means business against my life in the real world concerning my popularity and love.
Comparing People
How do you go about saying how different people are different?
Parents obviously have an affect on you young. You could say parents give up on race, like with biracial children. I want nothing to do with my parents or anyone.
Update
I made a new section on the left of this blog "For Poor | On Life" and it lists 5 Surveys (5 Surveys $5)
High School
Year 2 - Salmen High School
1 - English III - Gifted | Advanced Placement
2 - Algebra II - Gifted
3 - Chemistry - Honors
4 - World History - Honors?
5 - PE II | Health
6 - Spanish I
7 - French I
Work & Pay for Dance @ Galloway's
Year 3 - Salmen High School
1 - English IV - Gifted | Advanced Placement
2 - Advanced Math | Trigonometry - Gifted | Advanced Placement
3 - Physics - Honors
4 - American History - Gifted | Advanced Placement
5 - Free Enterprise | PE II
6 - Spanish II
7 - French II
Work & Pay for Dance @ Galloway's
College - Dance, French, German
Alone - Violin
High School
Year 1 - Salmen High School
1 - English II
2 - Geometry
3 - Career Orientation | Civics
4 - Biology
5 - PE
6 - Band - Oboe
7 - Algebra II
Year 2 - Salmen High School
1 - English III
2 - Advanced Math | Triginometry
3 - World History
4 - Chemistry
5 - PE | Health
6 - Band - Oboe
7 - Talented Music
Year 3 - Salmen High School
1 - English IV
2 - Calculus
3 - American History
4 - Physics
5 - Free Enterprise |
6 - Band - Oboe
7 - Talented Music
College - Violin & Dance
Mistake
I think people have made a mistake that I'm basically the stupid fart who decided I'd stay in the nursing home for 5 months.
Frilly
Link
The Crossing Point "Exchange" 😭 🤡
Frilly was 16, and Andre Rieu was 30, that's 14 years difference.
Frilly was still premature and a child on the inside, and it made her very happy and radiated and very healthy, indeed. She was mature in some ways.
Andre Rieu was already experienced in life, too. In some ways, he was like Joanna, who wasn't. Life was waiting for them. Joanna was his wife, and they had a beautiful girl named Crystal who was 12. Some girls were very jealous of Joanna getting everything, while sometimes people eyed Crystal who would flee into the distance and disappear, like a fairy princess.
Frilly, on the other hand had no problems with Joanna and loved Crystal and needed her in her life to make it happy and beautiful and worth living, as all the other people she knew in the orchestra were older. Otherwise, she was a stranger to life.
Frilly and Andre Rieu were basically siblings, but he was so much older he was her dad. Parents sorta disappeared, but Frilly wasn't attached to her parents like people like Joanna were.
Frilly was a lot like Crystal. Both matched their beautiful, bold names, readily, though each were thinking differently.
Frilly worked hard to do things like shovel snow in fine areas and plow it in big areas. She also played her violin.
Her confusion was a point of interest. She explained to Andre how hard it was to serve people and meet their needs, as she was a sorta servant to the orchestra and Joanna. She, as always, did a great job.
They were in the room, and he pulled her on his knee sitting inward, age 16 and small like the littlest of girls. He hugged her and told her to cry to feel it better, an exercise she did once for the theater with the older women of the orchestra and Joanna. She didn't want to do it.
He rubbed her and asked hypnotically to her if Joanna was bothering her, and she thought of her own question to most other women and she hugged him and got close to him and denied it.
She set sleepily and spoke of her wonder of the past and the future and looked up at him forlornly and faintly.
She broke the silence once more asking if she could do anything to help him, and he could tell she was going to cry, as the answer was probably no. It was a common thing for little siblings to wonder if they can help and fixate their obsession on it. Helping might mean working when people are frustrated or as they say in modern times "stressed out" or used to.
Um.
Laugh, I can't expect to be able to look up Andre Rieu like everyone else, and in general feel satisfied?
Well
What am I supposed to do, turn on my computer? I thought I was a human vegetable. "Here are your instructions." "What's the special prize, and who gets it?"
"Word."
If you're still caught up in my statement he doesn't do much in my life, Andre Rieu, I don't mean because I don't know of him as long as Petra.
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